Is It Enoguh?

Kissing

Venice woke up in the middle of the night, Vegas was sleeping but Pete was looking at him with tears in his eyes, "Papa sad?" he asked, "I'm sad to spend so many days away from you my love" Pete said stroking Venice's head "Ven sad too, I miss papa" "Sorry love" Pete said taking Venice's hand "Papa cuddle Ven?" he asked making a place on the bed for his papa, Pete nodded and climbed onto the bed, Venice quickly climbed on top of Pete settling into his chest, he rested his head on Pete's neck and hugged him with his little arms. "Ven not sad, Ven with papa now. Papa not sad, not cry anymore."
Pete hugged Venice and sighed: "No, papa is not sad when he is with Venice. Thank you for loving me, my sweet Venice," Pete said kissing the top of Venice's head. And Venice sighed happily, he missed his papa Pete's kisses so much, "Papa more kisses Ven" "Do you want more kisses from papa?" asked Pete with a smile, "Many many many many, Ven misses kiss pa Pete. Pa Vegas not kiss Ven, he just hugs and cuddle" said the boy pouting, "Oh no, I'll talk to papa Vegas when he wakes up, but you have to tell him to give them to you too. Papa Vegas doesn't like kissing other people, it's important that you remind him that he can kiss you" Venice nodded, "Pa Vegas kiss Pa Pete?"

Pete thought about him and Vegas when they were together before replying to Venice, "Hmmm, no..." Venice was looking at his papa, he was so good to talk to, he was tired, but he wanted to spend more time talking to papa even if he didn't understand everything from him, "Pa Pete tell pa Vegas kiss" Pete chuckled and kissed Venice again, he smiled and yawned. Pete smiled, "Looks like there's a little angel who's a little sleepy" he said hugging Venice again and tickling him, Venice let out a giggle and yawned again. "Sleep some more my love" "Papa stay?" Pete nodded, "Yes, papa will stay with you all the time." And the little boy fell asleep again.

Vegas had woken up a while ago, but he didn't want to break up the moment Pete and Venice were having. When he saw that Venice had been asleep for a while he spoke up, "What are you thinking Pete?" he said quietly. He thought Pete hadn't heard him and was going to ask again, but, "I'm thinking about Venice, you and me. It's lucky Venice loves us so much even though we're not good fathers to him" "You're a good father Pete. Without you he wouldn't have been so good and loving" "But I abandoned him, Vegas. A good father doesn't abandon his children" Vegas got up and walked over to Pete, he didn't like seeing him so sad and with tears in his eyes. He moved the chair Pete had been in closer to the bed and took one of Pete's hands in his own.

"Pete, listen to me, you're not a bad father" Pete was about to say something but Vegas wouldn't let him, "No, listen to me. Yes, you left Venice and you left home, I'm not saying that you didn't. You left. But that's not the only truth. You did, and after thinking about what you did, I'm glad and proud that you did. This won't make me father of the year but it's the truth," Vegas chuckled, Pete rolled his eyes, "You can't say that, Vegas." "I can and I did.... Look, I know how it sounds, but like I said, I've been thinking about you leaving and I couldn't help but compare us to my mum and father" "Vegas, you're not like him and you never will be. You love Venice, even when you didn't spend time with him you never treated him badly or yelled at him or put him down. Don't compare yourself to him and especially not to justify my wrongdoings. Not that, Vegas" Pete said angrily, Vegas flashed Pete a small smile and squeezed the hand he was still holding, he liked hearing those words from Pete, there was something good in him if someone as wonderful as Pete loved him.
"I know, love. I'm not like my father. But I did something like him, and please let me finish. He treated my mum badly, even worse than he treated Macau and me. She held on until she couldn't take it anymore and committed suicide.... I couldn't help but think that maybe if she had done what you did, she'd be alive.... "Vegas..." Pete removed his hand from Vegas's and stroked Vegas's cheek. "I don't know, I know I didn't do to you what my father did to my mum, I know I'm not a piece of shit like him, I love you, I loved you before and I still do, but I abandoned you, I didn't show you my love and I walked away from you. I'm different from him... He never loved her, for him she was a source of power and when I was born he didn't need her anymore. I became his new source...", Vegas hadn't realised he was crying until he felt Pete's fingers wiping away his tears, he had longed so much to feel Pete's affection that he simply closed his eyes and kept talking.