Is It Enoguh?

Surviving

When Vegas walked into their room, his room now, he felt the emptiness, Pete wasn't there but if he was honest with himself it had been a long time since Pete had last been there.

Vegas sat on the bed, rested his elbows on his knees and thought about the first time Pete hadn't slept in their, his bed....

The phone was ringing, "Fuck, it's Pete again. Look Porsche I have to go, we can keep looking for Anthony tomorrow, Pete is waiting for me and this is the first night we have for us since that demon came into our lives" said Vegas. "Oh come on Vegas, we are so close to him, Pete can wait a little longer".
But that little bit longer turned into 2 hours.
"Sorry Pete, we were looking for someone and I didn't realise it was getting late." "Don't worry Vegas, it wasn't a special night and you're busy, I understand" "Come on babe, let me make it up to you" Vegas tried to hug Pete, but Pete refused that hug "No need, go take a shower, I'm sure you're tired. I'm going to go check on Venice" "Venice? Didn't you say Macau was staying with him?", "Yeah, but after an hour waiting for you I figured you wouldn't come, so at least one of us could enjoy his night." Pete walked away, "Ah, Vegas, next time let me know if you're not coming."

"How could I not see the pain in your eyes that day Pete? How blind I was for my revenge. That night when I got out of the shower you weren't in bed and instead of looking where you were, I took Porsche's call. By the time I finished talking to him I was so tired and angry that I went to bed, without you" Vegas was crying again, not for losing Pete but for all the pain he had caused him over the last few months, for how he had abandoned him.

Vegas heard something like a baby crying, he opened his eyes and all the memories of the night before came back to him. He closed them again, maybe Pete would come through that door. But no, Pete didn't come in and the baby, Venice, was still crying.

Vegas went to his room, Venice's bodyguard, Max, was running towards Venice's room with a bottle in his hands. "Sorry Khun Vegas, Khun Pete showed me how to prepare Khun Venice's bottle but I couldn't get it right in time. I'll look after Khun Venice until the babysitter comes, she called saying she'll be late, there has been a car accident and she has been stuck in traffic for over an hour".

"Shut up Max and give me that bottle." Vegas said in a cold voice. "But..." "I'm not paying you to talk back to me, if you value your job shut the fuck up" Vegas said as he grabbed Max by the collar of his shirt. His reaction was out of proportion and he heard Pete's voice in his head telling him that bodyguards were people and deserved respect, he couldn't treat them like that.

He let go of Max, didn't apologise but softened his voice a little as he said, "I'll look after Venice until the babysitter comes". He took the bottle and went inside.
Venice raised his little head with a smile, but it disappeared when he saw Vegas, he frowned and muttered, "Pa Pe? "
Vegas sighed, "Sorry kid, Pa Pete won't be coming today, you have to make do with me."

Vegas changed Venice's diaper and sat with him on the couch to give him a bottle. Venice was quiet the whole time, he and Vegas didn't have a bad relationship but not a good one either. He didn't like sharing Pete's love with the child.

They heard a noise outside and then Max opened the door, "Khun Vegas, Khun Venice, the babysitter is here." A middle aged woman entered the room, she bowed her head "Khun Vegas, I'm Rose, Khun Pete hired me to look after Venice. I'm so sorry I'm late"

"How long did Pete hire you for?" asked Vegas, his voice again cold with no emotion.
Rose shuddered, "Khun Pete didn't say anything about the time. He just filled me in on Venice's routine, what he could and couldn't eat and what he liked to do. He told me that Khun Macau would help me get at least one day off a week. That everything was prepared in case I had to take Venice out of the house and that I should not bother Khun Vegas with Venice problems, you're too busy and have no time left for Venice".