AN AUTANMAMA BOOKS COLLECTION
A BOOK WRITTEN BY: Khadyjatt
CONTRITE HEARTS
CHAPTER NINE
Abdul naturally have a sympathetic heart especially if he can relate to the person emotions or furthermore if he can't relate he will want to be there for the person, the last two days he tried as much as he can to make Aisha understand that it's nobody's fault that she is carrying that child and he would never in anyway makes her feel that this child isn't his, he will be a father to whatever she's carrying and be the best of it, but that doesn't change a thing to Aisha, how she feels about this child or whatever,
She doesn't want this child she knows it,
How she had the child the scenario afterwards the conceived it's just so horrific that she finds nothing pleasant about having this child.
"So shagari has said he will not be in the hospital but he has sent me someone's else contact,
I called her and she said we can come now."Abdullahi say trying as much as he can to encourage Aisha to go for the antenatal until now he doesn't care what Aisha does or what she wants to do with this child but realizing how she despise talking about the pregnancy and openly telling him she's giving the child up for adoption after she put to birth makes him realize she needs emotional support and he will tried as much as possible to give that to her.
"Aisha."he called and she looks up from where she's sitting down in the parlor, her name has never sound so beautiful in anyones mouth not even yahya like they sound in Abdullahi's.
"I don't want to go."she grumble disinterested and he sigh, she wished Abdul will just understand that she doesn't want to do anything for this child,
She just feel so bad that he thinks this child it's illegitimate of course it's illegitimate but to the bandit if it's for the bandits she would be more at peace knowing whatever inside her was forced to come through her into this world but this is different, this child each time she think of it, it just brings bad memories, the good moments with Yahya that was supposed to be the start of their happily ever after to his death and a lot more it's just impossible for her to see herself holding this child and nourishing it or whatsoever become a mother to it.
"Humairah."he called and she didn't bother to look up, she felt his presence next to her and she just turn away not interested.
"So tell me now,
How did you feel doing all of this?
Do you want to question the almighty's verdict on you?
Is it your qadr you want to question or his judgement towards you?"
"Verily, We have created all things with Qadar (Divine Preordainments) of all things before their creation as written in the Book of Decrees." (Q. 54:49)"
"Don't you believe in qadr?"
Aren't you a Muslim?"he interrogate as Aisha listen it just feel too good and sound so foreign to hear abdullahi sounding this soothing and all.
"Stand up."he says standing up and removing his ringing phone from his pocket.
"Hello."he says and grab her by the arm lifting her to her feet at once as he hold her hands in his with his phone press to his ear.
"We are on our way."he says and hung up.
"Okay so the doctor is waiting,
Come on."he says scanning her appearance she's wearing a black Abaya as usual the veil was tied on her head, he loose it and roll it over head as he thought of how he do always do that munirah while she pout as usual which makes him to smile to himself nostalgically, munirah is surely a giant baby.
