Contrite Hearts

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AN AUTANMAMA BOOKS COLLECTION
A BOOK WRITTEN BY: Khadyjatt

CONTRITE HEARTS

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

"Well you need to convince her to do the therapy if not she's not gonna be okay or able to bond with that baby."shagari says and Abdul sigh.

"How am I gonna convince her when she doesn't want to do that?
I feel even bad that munirah has to be the one caretaker for that boy when she's yet to have hers,
And Aisha doesn't even seems to care now for the past 4days she hasn't seen that boy and she didn't even care to ask me where he is,
Niinii will soon go back to school and I'm not sure she's gonna have that time to take care of a baby that isn't hers,
I will seriously report her to her parents......

"And say what?

"She's driving me crazy,
This morning I told her she should get ready and Let's go to the therapist place she shut the door and she refused to come out,
I'm so exhausted at the moment."Abdul admit and shagari sigh.

"See I don't know perhaps there was something your wife is dealing with that she doesn't want you to know, New mum's often suffered PDD but with therapy they heal and bond perfectly well with their baby, follow her calmly first, talk to her and hear of there's something she want to share with you or that you needed to know convince her to go to the therapist, you people have little problem in life."shagari says disinterested and Abdul sigh.

Little problem in life?
That sentence hit him hard, the baggage he's carrying around and the mistakes he's commit he's perfectly well aware of, until Aisha give birth to this child he hasn't thought much about their marital life and the the fact that deep beneath them they both know they are living a lie saddened him, it hurts him a lot, at this point he's not even sure if he perhaps want to continue this marriage with Aisha but then quoting it all at once seems selfish, he should have stayed clear from her when he found out she was pregnant because he did know that islamically their marriage is invalid since he married her with pregnancy but then temptation fall in to place and things that shouldn't happened has happened perhaps that also contributed to Aisha trauma,
He has thought of the possibility of doing another Nikah with Aisha someone else but then he's still skeptical he needed someone he trusted to know the truth but at same time he doesn't want no one to know because that would lead to unraveling the child identity he really has been through alot of things that he hasn't been since he married Aisha.

"What happened ?"shagari Ask earning his attention and he looks up almost deliberately and skeptical,
Should he tell him?
They have been friends for decades he believe shagari will never share his secret with anyone but then, this isn't his secret, this is Aisha's baggage and she entrusted him to keep despite the circumstances he sigh and facepalm.

"But how are we gonna do with the baby while I try to convince her to start going for therapy?
How long does it take?"Abdul ask and shagari shrug.

"It all differs the critical the condition the longer the treatment some of this thing can last up to 6months or even a year, understands that at this point what your wife need is your care, attention and support because people with this condition can even attempt suicide with her having history of attempting suicide you need to be very careful and keep the baby away from her since she said she doesn't want to see it until the necessary thing is been done because she can harm the baby if care isn't taken,
Try and talk to her be supportive of her through the process."shagari says and sigh resting his head on the desk childishly making Abdul to sigh.

"I'm just so exhausted with everything to be honest..........

"I don't know what to tell you again,
But firstly go and try to convince her to talk to you whatever it's doing her then you can convince her to come to the hospital the earlier the better."shagari says and abdul sigh.

The peers went on talking about their personal issues throughout Abdul deliberate between seeking shagari opinion and tell him the actual truth or keeping it to himself but after a lot of thought he decide to keep everything to himself certainly the wise and thoughtful decision or so he thought.

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AISHA'S P.O.V

"You sent the baby to where?
Ya didn't bring any baby at home,
Or.....
Why will you even sent him somewhere?"hudah ranted for the million time and of there's anything I want at the moment is serenity.

"I am not breastfeeding so it's not bad."

"Ehnnnn
But.......the parlor door open and it's Ya Abdullahi,
The last few days he's staying here there's very little words exchange between us even when he left and comes back without the baby I didn't ask him where he took him, but now I'm skeptical since Hudah told me he's not at there place, or perhaps he took him to my step mum, that is impossible because she would have called me.

"Ya where is Kareem......

"What are you doing out by this time?
It's past maghrib leave this place."he say and she huffed, she grab her handbag that's on the couch and enter the bedroom, not long she comes out and bid me goodbye since her brother is enter his bedroom already, I didn't bother seeing her off because I'm not in the best mood.

I head back to my bedroom, probably I should go to bed since I'm on my period, even if I'm not I am mot sure anything will happened between me and Him, ever since I put to birth he hasn't come near me and it's been more than 3 months now, I'm skeptical there are so many question running inside my head and among them is the probability of my marriage coming to an end, was I even married?
I was very much well aware that my marriage with him is invalid since I was pregnant but what happened when he found out I was certainly not expecting something to come between us but it did and now to be honest It rekindle the entire emotions and whatsoever I used to have for him in the past and I'm afraid he might want to end everything.

"Salamu'alaikum."the familiar voice says as he pushes the door open, I'm still on the red Ankara gown I wore today.

"Can we talk?"he ask and I give him a questionable look before looking down, he probably took that as a yes, he sat on the sofa facing the bed and I hear him taking or releasing a heavy breath.

"Ok."was all I could say as I feel my heartbeat picking up rapidly.
"Aisha is there something you want to talk to me about?........

"Like what?"I ask releasing a heavy breath.

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