Toxic | Hyunlix

II.

I stood up and threw my cigarette in the ashtray can. Someone came behind me and covered my eyes real quick. I smiled.
-"What are you doing girl?" 
-"Guess what Felix?" Georgina said with excitement.
-"What?"
-"I'm talking to another guy" she laughed
-"Are you serious?" I turned around facing her.
-"Yes, he's from LA an-"
As I felt my expression so warm and filled with happiness for her, my face dropped down with my jaw also and I looked at her.
-"What? Why are you looking at me like that?" She asked.
-"Uh, what? What do you I-" I felt like I'm loosing my breath.
-"Felix, are you okay?"
-"Yes, what do you mean I am absolutely okay. Let's go." I smiled. I noticed how she looked at me with confusion.
-"Is there something you hide from me?" She asked as we were heading to the restaurant.
-"No, what do I have to hide? it's okay, continue."
-"Okay then. So he's from LA and..."
As she continued talking my mind flew away and I zoned out. She was speaking and I kept zoning out. As i thought of something else, I started coughing.
-"Felix.." she stopped and looked at me.
-"I'm okay it's just, I'm kinda sick right now."
-"Am I saying something wrong? Please tell me I won't force you to listen."
-"its okay, Geo, I am hearing you. It's just that I'm kinda sick right now and... all of this drama with my next runway just keeps.. getting over me."
I heard her this time and thank God she continued talking so that I know she wasn't talking about something else.
We got inside the restaurant and we sat. We took off our coats, because it was warm inside. The waiter came to us and hanged us the menus.
-"Bonsoir, merci" I smiled.
***
-"Geo, I think you must start taking French classes, since you live here. French people won't be nice to you when you speak English, trust me."
-"You're right, I am going to ask somewhere for lessons and I will start."
We continued talking and we made our order. Georgina told me that she met a group of people that were such a good company and that I should meet them as well, I didn't want it to sound rude but I refused. I have too much plans these weeks. All this stress is getting over me, everything about the runway. We talked about this as we were eating and she was giving me advices. The fact that people give me motivation and hustle for what's to come makes me feel confidence enough for the success.
***
-"So back to your guy. How is it going, what are you guys talking about?" I asked her.
-"Nothing too special, but for now I'm noticing that he's nice to me. I feel like he's not rude or tries to shame me in a joke. He's really careful and picks his words. Which is really, really good."
-"Mhm..." not my type.
-"I'm so happy for you and I hope everything works out!" I smiled.
-"May God hear you Felix, because I really want a strong relationship. I've been there way too long. I need something that would heal my heart and make me feel loved and protected."
-"I understand you. I wish you all of this, because you deserve it. You're such a loving person and I hope you find someone like you, someone who's this caring like you."
-"You think so?" She smiled.
-"Of course. I just want the best for you, because you deserve it."
-"I love you" she pouted and smiled. -"I wish the same things for you. Because you deserve it too. You deserve someone this heart-warming like you and kind and so angelic beautiful like you."
I blinked and smiled, feeling the need to smoke again. -"Thank you"
-"You shouldn't stress so much. You are so beautiful and I know that everybody will keep talking about you after this runway show. I just don't want you to stress and be so nervous about it. You know you have experience in other brands too, like Dior? Dior is such a big brand and you weren't so nervous about it."
-"Yes, I understand what are you trying to say but Versace for me is such a.. It was my dream brand to wear since I was a kid and I thought it was so, so serious. Their clothes, their style and attitude is such a big deal for me, and that's why I'm so stressed if I'm gonna match them, if I'm gonna get closer to their ways. And also about the talking thing. I don't want anybody to talk about me so much after the show. I just wanna succeed and do it how it's exactly done."
She shook her head.
-"Oh, now I get it, I get it. But I'm still sure you got this though."
-"Yeah I hope, I hope so much."
-"Honestly, sorry for what I'm gonna say, but if I was at your place I would be a little bit more confident, knowing that I walked way more other big brands and it wasn't my first time."
-"No don't be sorry. You are right, I know that you're right. But I am confident I know that I'm gonna try to give my best. "
She shook her head. -"You got this!" She whispered and squeezed my hand. I smiled and felt better by her support.
-"Thank you for the support."
-"Of course, I got you."
***
After the dinner I had with Georgina I got back home and took a shower. I went to bed early, because I'm trying to gain more energy these days for the runway show. I looked up some models and clothes of Versace. Searched up one of the best models and also my favourite ones, such as Vittoria Ceretti, Adriana Lima, Giselle Bundchen and more. After taking information my tiredness couldn't keep me awake any longer and I turned off the lamp, ready to sleep.