Toxic | Hyunlix

XII.

"Why would you remind me you existed after all these years?" I stopped crying and got myself together. Even though I still don't know what is happening and I can't believe I am hearing the person who I think about daily, I still had to be cold and non caring, after all he had done to me in this life. Never matter if his every word affected me unbelievably so much, I had to just be as cold as he was back then, because I knew he deserves it, so, so much even too much.
-"Oh this sweet mouth, don't lie to me, I know every inch of you."
I teared up once again but this time i controlled it.
-"Hyunjin." I took a deep breath, brushed off my tears and started speaking like a real serious person without letting any emotion in myself get over me, because I needed to show him the true side, served coldly just like he deserves. -"I want you to listen to me really carefully, okay?
If you called me, just to find out where I am, with who I am, what am I doing, where am I going or get into my life again, it won't work for you. Okay? Yes I lied, I did not forget you, at all, but I would never ever get down on this level again just like I did last time. I am not the doll you used to play with anymore. Get that in your head. I grew up and realised how I was letting you treat me like shit and I hurt my own self respect, because of you. I do not hate you, I will remember you in a good way even though you don't deserve it. And I hope that's enough for you. I may feel bad after saying to you all these things, but just like people say facing the truth always hurts. I might still fucking think of you, but time always heals. You shall continue your life just like you did before now."
I heard nothing, God how good it felt when I knew he realised I was right in everything I just said. 
"You know your sweet words, have a minimalistic matter here. If I want to find you, I will find you. Nothing can stop me."
-"You're never gonna find me, Hyunjin. I am living my dream life, I am way fucking richer than you, everyday I get millions of dollars just because of my beauty. I won't betray myself returning back to you and become an object again."
-"It doesn't matter what do you think, little one, I told you I'm gonna find you whenever I want. Nothing can stop me."
-"Did you stay dry, huh? You don't like staying dry at all and you know who gets you wet, how do you want, right, does anyone makes you feel just like I did, or you don't care and switch every each and one of them just to find the perfect one? Is that why you called me? Because I really won't be surprised if you did. All you fucking care about is this. You never loved me just once. You controlled me like I'm your robot. I don't know what were you trying to do by calling me, but I got too much confidence to became a waitress again. You could manipulate someone else, someone who was dumb like me, sadly
I am not the dumb one anymore so you may continue with the research. Good luck." I hung up.
***
-"Fuck my life" I threw my phone on the ground out of nerves but since it was in the grass when I picked it up nothing was wrong with it.
God why can't he just disappear out of my existence, I really think I should go and do some kind of memory erase thing, so that I can forget about this boy.
I took a deep breath trying to relax and gather my thoughts. After a while I went back in the house and went to miss Johnson.
-"Miss I'm so sorry but I really have to go home, I'm so tired of everything."
-"Oh? Darling what's wrong? Did you just cry?" She asked me with a caring tone.
-"No I... it's fine I'm just super drunk right now. Sorry. I really, really have to go."
"Okay,okay, we're leaving then."
She said and went to say goodbyes to miss Donatella and the other people.
***
I starred outside the window in the limousine feeling tears coming up in my eyes again but controlled them this time as well.
***
Before heading to open my apartment and stayed for bit like that and starred at the keys. Then I turned around and looked upstairs. I realised something and I went for it.
***
-"Felix... you're here.." he said quietly with happiness in his eyes after I ringed at his door.
I went in and kissed him. He was surprised but then of course he returned it. He slowly started touching my thighs with gentle squeezes.
He used to do the same, but my body for him was made out of some plastic. His squeezes and touches were rough always. I never saw and heard something sweet and gentle out of Hyunjin's mouth and his actions. All he did was making me his property. Be jealous, be strict, "where are you", "don't go there", "don't do that", "ask me first", "do what I say", "don't look at this", "be this", "be that", "listen to me" and of course his all time favourite, "I'll punish you.", whenever I tried to do something different that he wanted.
I let go of the kiss and Louis looked at me.
-"What happened sweetie? Why are you eyes red?" He said while closing the door.
I teared up again, Louis is an amazing guy.  I really loved how he cares about me.
-"Nothing it's just.."
-"Wait.. get in come on, sit at the couch in the fireplace to get warm."
I nodded and took off my shoes. I went and sat at the couch, his apartment was so calming it's unreal. It was so calming and quiet, it was super lovely.
***
I smiled as an idea came to my head.
-"What are you gonna do for Christmas? I think you should place a tree right next to the fireplace. It would be so, so beautiful, but you must put a big one though. And some Christmas socks over the fireplace as well. It would be super cute." I said to him while my voice sounding like I had a really serious cold. He sat beside me in the couch and starred at me.
-"You're so beautiful and smart." He said quietly with a soft smile on his lips. I looked at him in the eyes. While looking at him someone's else's voice spawned in my head. I don't know it might have been just a fantasy in my head, but Hyunjin's "where's my little model" affected me way more than "You're so beautiful" by Louis.
-"Thank you.." I smiled to him.
-"Tell me... what happened why did you cry?" He said coming closer to me putting his hand around my shoulders.
-"It's just, it was because of happiness, that I did my best at the runway and.. I got so happy and also Donatella Versace came to me at the after party and said that she wants to work with me more and.. out of happiness I just cried."
-"Really? Is that the reason?" He asked unsure.
-"Yes. It is. Also do you have YouTube in your tv, I told her I must watch the runway show."
-"Of course." He hanged me the controller while taking it I sneezed for about three times.
-"Oh, bless you." He petted my hair.
-"Thank you, that's.. the beginning. I just knew I was gonna catch a big cold."
-"Do you want me to make you a hot tea? I have any tea."
Fuck, I love him.
-"That sounds so good, thank you very much."
-"For nothing princess.." I looked at him.
-"Wait.." As he headed to stand up i touched his hand. I kissed him once again and smiled while he also smiled.
-"You have really nice lips." He whispered to me.
-"You too." I smiled and leaned on the couch again. He went to make me the tea while I searched to watch the runway show.