Toxic | Hyunlix

XVI.

After hours we were walking around in the centre of Paris and we decided to go to some street shops to buy cool stuff, like magnets or probably plushies.
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-"Have you ever played this?" Louis asked me while we were walking down.
-"What?"
-"This" he pointed me a boxing machine near us. I laughed.
-"Oh.. yeah I did."
-"Really?"
-"Yeah, when I lived in LA"
-"I thought you didn't know what is it."
-"What?" I laughed "How? Have you ever been to LA."
-"Nope."
-"Oh.. so that's why you wonder. From now on maybe you shouldn't wonder if I know some things, I'm from the west side you know..."
-"Ooh... okay.. I'm gonna be careful then."
I laughed. -"Do you wanna play?" He asked.
-"Oh no.. give it a try I.."
-"Come on.. I know you want to."
I laughed again. -"Okay, you first."
"Fine" He opened his pocket to take coins but realised he had only big bucks. -"Oh, I don't have coins." He looked around -"Wait a second here, I'll be right back." He went to the closest shop. As I waited for him I looked around and realised how beautiful Paris actually was. For the years I've been here, I never had the time to actually enjoy and get along with the Paris vibes. Now I'm realising it's not the place I go to, it's just me and my activities. LA is also so beautiful, when someone don't make you hate it. Maybe if I never met the person who made me hate it, I would've just stayed in the west side with my parents and live a free, American life, instead of coming over here to become and model and earn millions of dollars. I know it sounds stupid, because everybody would choose to become this and to be rich. But why am I overthinking again... what's wrong with me? I live the life too many people wish for. What's never enough? I wonder this daily. Money doesn't make me happy...does it? probably modelling as well. What do I really want from life, I still don't know. I'm confused. God, if I never met him my life was gonna be pure like an angel's tear.
I sighed and smiled like a cute Parisian bombshell, looking super sure and happy. Even when I was waiting for Louis, a girl came and took a picture with me. Do I have real fans? What exactly are they thinking about me, they're probably thinking when I step on that stage to just walk and act sexy in some type of way, my life is complete. Actually day by day I'm realising this isn't my source of happiness at all.
***
-"Okay, let's go." Louis says and puts the coins in the machine. -"Step back a little."
-"Wow.. wow okay Mike Tyson" I said and Louis looked at me.
-"Are you mocking me right now?"
I laughed and he pinched my nose.
-"Hey.. hey don't try me little one." He laughed and tickled my neck.
-"Stop.." I laughed and removed his hand -"Come on play now, let me see."
-"Okay." He stopped and fixed his posture standing in front of the machine, when the ball came outside he took powers and punched it.
-"Nice." I said and smiled.
-"Oh.. last time I did it better." He looked at the points he made, they were 1457. I had a mini Deja vu just now. This isn't happening to me for the first time.. not with Louis.
-"Come on give it a try." He smiled and looked at me.
-"No.. no" I laughed
-"Come on, please I wanna see you." He begged me.
I sighed "okay. Take this." I gave him my bag and I immediately felt the LA vibes I used to have. My life there was just so uncaring, I was outside 24/7 of the time with my friends. We were literally eating fast food everyday, our parents were so mad about that, but we were continuing doing it, cause we just loved being stubborn on the west side. Californians would get me, especially my friends. I punched the ball.
-"WOW!" Louis almost shouted, it's like he has a microphone. -"What the hell??" I laughed.
-"How the heck did you punch it like that?" He asked
-"I'm not a Parisian. That's why.. I guess."
-"Wow.. you're super, super cool."
-"Thanks." I smiled.
-"You even reached my score. That's.. you're insane. Have you did something through these years?"
-"Okay.. I won't lie i used to take fighting lessons yeah.." I laughed
-"You little.." he pinched my nose again and touched my hair making it messy.
-"And what else have you done in LA, huh? West side princess."
-"You don't wanna know.."
-"Oh, I wanna know so many things! Come on let's go eat somewhere, I wanna know your childhood stories in this interesting place."
I laughed and we went to a fancy looking restaurant.
As we ordered Louis took a sip of his hot tea and looked at me.
-"Come on, seriously I wanna know more about your life in LA."
-"Okay, what do you wanna know?"
-"I mean..your life in general, what did you use to do there?"
-"Well.. I studied in a college. I had a lot of friends there, we were doing parties every year, we had school vacations it was.. super fun, we used to take language courses with my best friends after college, I would say I had a busy but then not really busy life there. I was kind of busy because of college but my life In general was just free there. As I said I'm from the west side but our neighbourhood wasn't that bad."
-"Why would it be bad?"
I laughed. "Don't you know like.. anything about LA?"
-"I know that it's like, I lot of bad guys are these you know.. "
-"Okay, okay so that's enough now. That's why I'm saying most of them were in the west side, but our neighbourhood wasn't like that. I've seen a lot of things you probably don't wish to see ever in your life in LA, but I would say Vegas is worse. I lived in Vegas as well for about a year, my siblings are living there. That's like the town of sin. It's full with casinos everywhere. A lot of heavy drinkers are living there. I would say I got that habit from there. Maybe if I wasn't there I wouldn't drink alcohol at all."
-"Paris isn't romantic as well, trust me, a lot of people here are freaks."
-"I know. I've seen it. I'm not tryna.. sound selfish you know, but I'm not just a regular person after all, a lot of people are working with me and i receive too much financial support, so I'm known here and there about that, and so many people have been weird to me since im here, you know."
-"Absolutely, I know that. You are famous after all."
-"Not like.. famous, famous. But.. yeah"
-"I got so curious right now, I think I wanna visit LA, haha"
-"that's cool, you're gonna like it but.. it's gonna be a total different world from here. Nothing is the same. It's hard to.. you know get along with the American life if you haven't been there since day one. I'm saying this because it's true. I'm gonna say one fact about the people there. If you don't build your own.. how do I say it, people have to see that you are a great person. They absolutely hate quiet people, those who are introverted. If they see that you have success and people know you and you have a big circle of friends, then you absolutely know what's.. really going on. Growing up to a neighbourhood where most of the people are like these, I learned that I should be more outgoing and not that outsider you know... can't say that I wasn't. But I learned how it's done by a really early age. You just gotta.. be.. the shit. I'm sorry but there's just no other way to explain it. You gotta be a gangster to survive there, you gotta reach this goal so that when people see you, to be respectful towards you for what you've done, because they know that a lot of people know you. They're so respectful when you are like.. the shit you know?? No matter if you are a man of a woman they're all like this."
-"I got that. I immediately understood what are you trying to say." He laughed.
-"I'm glad."
-"So you are.. this kind of person huh.."
-"Yeah I guess so.." I smiled.
-"And a lot of people know you there?"
-"They do." I smiled.
-"That's amazing for you. You're super cool, really, no jokes. And what if you get back after all these years? They would know you are super rich and you have a lot of success how would they react?"
-"Oh I actually think about that, yeah. That would be messy honestly." I laughed. "Since a lot of kids in the west side know me, they would be super respectful towards me. They would expect some cash too.. not even a little bit, if I don't give them money, they would bully me."
Louis laughed. -"No wonders."
-"You're amazing. I'm not a Californian but.. I do have a lot of respect for you and what have you done."
I laughed. -"Thanks. I mean.. who knows maybe someday you would get to experience the LA side. You would like it. It's super fun and honestly you could never be bored there. People are too funny there and you could easily make friends, if you are not.. as I said and outsider and a quiet person." 
He nodded as we ate and went for a walk again.