Toxic | Hyunlix

XI.

Miss Johnson couldn't stop complimenting me after all the effort and performance I have put in the runway show. She told me that the way I walked and the way the outfits fitted me were absolutely perfect. She knew that lots of people were gonna talk about me after the show and I will earn a lot more fame. That wasn't so important to me, of course. I never wanted to have lots of fans and be so famous, I just want to chase my dream with success and after this show I am really proud of myself that I did exactly that. I was super nervous and stressed to not mess something up, but I ended up being so focused and on point. I couldn't feel my legs right now, from the pain and the cold weather either. I stayed outside for more than three hours, I was just sure I'm gonna catch a big cold that isn't gonna last just for a couple days just like the regular ones. I was in miss Johnson's limousine right now and they were taking me home to get ready for the after party. I am literally so tired and exhausted but I had to go for sure. I went inside my apartment as they waited me outside, I told them that I won't be taking too long, since I'm tired I'll just put on something and get out. I really felt the need to just take a shower and go to bed but I knew I must go to this party since, Donatella Versace herself invited me. I called my mom real quick so that she knows everything passed successfully, she told me that I looked perfect. Why does everybody tell me that? I haven't looked at myself yet. I did not know how I looked and I gotta go to YouTube and play the live stream when I get home. I chose my outfit, put on something jewellery and immediately went out since I was kinda late.
-"Shit" I whispered as I forgot my birkin bag. I went back upstairs, open the door and took it. I closed it and as I was in hurry I went straight downstairs without seeing if someone would come. I bumped into a person and nearly fell.
-"Princess?"
I looked up and I saw Louis catching me just like last time.
-"Louis? Oh my god.. im so sorry."
-"It's.. okay and.. you look...." He starred at me.
-"Louis I.. I am so so sorry but I gotta go."
-"Would you like to come over tonight Felix.." he whispered to me and touched my cheek. I just starred at him and slowly took his hand off my face.
-"I can't promise."
-"Please, I want to know more about you."
I saw his eyes filled with desire.
-"Okay.." I nodded -"Okay I will come."
-"Really?"
I heard a honk outside and immediately knew it was from the limousine.
-"I must go. See you." I let go of him and went out.
***
The after party was far away from my place and it wasn't even near the Eiffel Tower or the Louvre. We went to a place I completely didn't know. When we parked we saw a big white house with a fountain in the front. Outside the house were lots of people standing in tall tables with drinks. In the entrance there was a red carpet and photographers. We went inside only with miss Johnson and people were starting to take pictures of us. I smiled and waved as a woman came to me.
-"Can we interview you real quick Felix?"
I saw her and smiled.
-"Of course."
All the cameramen were literally infront of me and I was sure that was live streamed as well.
-"Welcome on Vogue again and we have such and such a talented and special guest today at the Versace after party,  known as the Dior face, here with us is Felix! Hi!"
-"Hii." I said with a smile.
-"First of all can we talk about this outfit, you look absolutely stunning."
-"Thank you so much, I just wanna say that.. I literally froze after the show, so I just chose something that would warm me all the time and.. i seriously fear I'm gonna catch a big cold after.. all of this." I laughed as she laughed louder than me.
-"Yes. I totally agree with you today was too cold."
-"Right? That's what I'm saying I barely even feel my body from the coldness."
-"Yeah.. that's not cool for sure."
I nodded.
-"So tell me, how does it feel to be a part of this? A part of the Versace team now, and as I remember this is your first time? How does it feel?"
-"So, yes this is absolutely my first time ever, walking for Versace and for this whole week I've been too stressed, I was feeling like I've never done this before. Versace for me is like.. one of the biggest fashion brands in history so it was honestly something that couldn't stop my nervousness all the time. But I tried my best of course to proof that I am worth for this and I give all thanks to Donatella for trusting me and having me to express all of these pieces. "
-"Amazing. For me personally I think you killed it." She whispered to me in the microphone. I laughed.
-"Thank you so much."
-"Okay, wish you luck and success for all the time thank you for this interview. And you. Stay on Vogue, we have too many other things to show you."
***
I went to miss Johnson again, she was in one of the tables and she was drinking wine.
-"Wine?" I laughed.
-"What do you want, something stronger?" She pinched my nose and pet my hair. I laughed and took a glass, I poured myself whiskey and put some ice cubs in it.
I looked at miss Johnson and took my cup.
-"Cheers for Versace." I smiled.
-"Cheers my darling." We laughed and enjoyed the jazz music coming from God knows where.
After a while we saw Donatella heading to us. I saw miss Johnson and got excited.
-"Hello, dear Felix." She said and gave her hand for a gentle shake.
-"Hello, miss. It's so nice to meet you." I smiled and we shook hands. She took a not really long look at me and quietly mentioned. "Fabulous."
I couldn't help but smile at her compliment.
-"Thank you so much."
-"I just wanna say dear, look forward to work with me again. This was your first show but it wasn't obvious, that it was the first one. Your moves were way more professional than my old models. This body, of yours screams Versace, you know that?"
I was nearly tearing up when I heard her, this was like my "I made it" moment for sure.
-"Seriously? Thank you so so much, miss. It means a lot to me, really."
-"Have you seen yourself? In the show?"
-"Uh.. no, no I haven't. I haven't yet."
-"You must do that and you're gonna understand what I'm talking about."
-"Okay I promise, miss. I will do that right when I get home, thank you again so, so much for the sweet comments." I smiled.
-"I'm glad you are here, you and miss Johnson are the right combination, right miss Johnson?"
-"Oui, notre mademoiselle Versace" Miss Johnson mentioned and both me and Donatella laughed.
-"You're just like I remember you, Karma" Donatella said to miss Johnson.
-"I am good at loyalty.." miss Johnson said.
-"I see, I see, okay, have fun and watch the stream on YouTube Felix, dear."
-"I will miss, Thank you so much again."
***
I looked at miss Johnson when Donatella left us.
-"Did you hear what she said to me? She said my body screamed Versace" I laughed and got really happy. -"I really never got this compliment ever, and from her, it's really amazing."
-"You did an amazing job, Felix. Your walk was fantastic." Miss Johnson said to me with passion.
-"Really? I really haven't seen myself."
-"Do that immediately when you get home."
-"I will of course."
***
I drank a lot of alcohol tonight and there was a reason for that. I was so happy I did an amazing job today and I am really proud of myself. The way I got stressed for this whole week and know Donatella Versace herself, standing in front of me and saying I have a body of Versace makes me so confident and feel blessed. She also mentioned that I must look forward to work with her again and that makes me so, so happy. I finally get to become a real, real supermodel and feel completely worth it for that. As we were still there I heard my phone buzzing and I got it out. I saw an unknown number. I didn't know who it is so I was heading to put it back inside when I realised this phone number called me in days, and it was always on time when I can't take it, everytime it called me I never took it. I decided I'm not gonna reject it this time  and finally see who it is.
-"Excuse me." I said to miss Johnson and I went outside on a more quiet place. I was kinda dark before the tall plants in front of the house but I wasn't scared at all. Not to sound too selfish but when I get drunk I'm not scared of anything in this world. I took a deep breath and finally answer the phone.
-"Hello?"
***
Right when I said that I heard an intense breathing and they immediately hung up from the other side. I blinked and starred at the phone as It was too bright. At this moment I couldn't understand what exactly was happening, I was too drunk for this.
I called and waited for response again.
-"Hello, who is this?" As it picked up I said again and kept hearing breathing I didn't say anything else until I realised who is it. I felt my body weak immediately, my face rested, my heart raced, my legs were getting too weak right now and I felt like I'm gonna fall in a second, my body got millions of chills, I started not feeling my hands again, I turned around and saw a bench right next to me. It was so dark I just sat and starred at a dot.
-"Who.. is this?" I asked again sounding as weak as i actually am.
-"Your devil..." He mentioned and my world turned around. I smiled and started crying immediately. I did not say anything I just started sobbing like crazy.
-"Put the phone in your ear." He whispered and I did it. I tried to act fucking cool and careless but when I heard his breathing and the music to my ears, his voice, everything in my existence became weak again. I really couldn't stop sobbing, I couldn't control it even a little bit. Maybe it was, because I was too drunk or maybe I would've done that even if I was sober.
-"Where's my little model, huh?" He spoke to me like I'm a little child. I started crying even more.
-"Shh.." he whispered. -"Turn on your camera, now" He spoke quietly.
I brushed off my tears.
-"I can't, I'm too drunk right now." I said with a really crying voice. 
-"Oh...oh... this voice" he whispered.
He created chills to my body again. I brushed off my tears and made serious expression trying to focus. I took a deep breath again.
-"Why.. would you call me?" I said carelessly and coldly.
-"Careful there little one..." He played with me again. I felt my body weak once again.
-"What do you want from me, Hyunjin?" I said coldly once again, it's like I wouldn't die for him. -"Why would you call me?" I asked again.
-"Slow down."
I really couldn't process what was happening right now, I thought I'm literally dreaming, since I'm drunk i thought I was sleeping and I needed someone to slap me and wake me up. I stood up and started walking down the street where it was a little bit lighter so that I can face literal reality.