Toxic | Hyunlix

XIV.

-"You can trust me..." Louis said to me. I looked down as I took a deep breath, I can't even explain how I felt right now. It's like my world has a completely different meaning right now. I realised that, modelling and becoming famous and coming to Paris did not actually made me so happy. It was just my own fantasy. All I feel is emptiness but still like I carry something too heavy all the time, something that's heavier than all the rocks in the world. I am so tired and exhausted.
-"It's just..."
-"Yes..." Louis said continuing rubbing my back gently. I started crying once again trying to stop my emotions but I just couldn't help it.
-"I'm so sorry..." I said wiping my tears away.
-"Princess... please, it's okay, but I need you to tell me what do you feel, because if you hold it in it's gonna be worse, trust me, come here, it's okay..." he spoke to me calmly and quietly pulling me closer and hugged me. I started crying even more, I just couldn't fight this battle between my emotions and actions.
-"Shh... it's okay, it's okay." He rubbed my back and petted my hair.
-"Thank you so much Louis..." I said with a crying voice, the alcohol just started affecting me yet.
-"Shh, don't thank me for nothing. I need you to tell me, come on. Calm down."
I brushed off my tears once again. I felt like I nearly started shaking which I successfully didn't show him that.
-"It's okay... breathe, look at me." I looked at him as he inhaled and exhaled telling me to breathe with him. He rubbed my cheek as i was taking deep breaths trying to calm down, for now what I avoided are my shaky hands.
-"Better?" He asked.
I shook my head.
-"I think you're having a panic attack. What's the reason Felix...? You need to tell me, you must tell me, so that you can feel better, you can trust me." 
I looked at him and sighed.
-"Wait..." he stood up and went to another room, when he came he gave me a white pill.
-"What is that?" I asked.
-"That's a mint pill, put it under your tongue, it helps relief stress."
As I did that, Louis took the whiskey and my cup away.
-"It's late... it's almost three, you must sleep." He said coming to me.
-"Yeah... I must go home now.."
-"What? I don't mean that, you're not going anywhere. I'm not gonna leave you alone in this situation." As he said that he grabbed me and carried me gently all the way to the bedroom. He placed me slowly and covered me with a soft blanket.
-"Do you feel better?"
-"Yes. Thank you so much, Louis..."
-"Don't thank me, you deserve more than that." After saying that Louis took a sheet and placed it on the ground while taking his pillow from the bed.
-"Sleep with me." I said as he looked at me.
-"Are you... okay with that, are you sure?" He asked quietly.
I shook my head as he took the things from the ground and placed them in the bed again.
-"Did you finish the pill? Do you want a cup of water?"
-"No... it's okay, I'm okay now." 
-"Wait, you still have your dress on..." he opened his closet and got out one of his grey hoodies. -"Here... uh, you can put that. Tell me when you're ready." He got out the room as I starred at the door. Why is he helping me? Honestly if it wasn't him right now and I was alone in my apartment I could've get wasted like nobody else, smoke three packs of cigarettes, have one thousand mental breakdowns and three thousand crying sessions in Hyunjin's name. But God just decided to send me an angel like Louis and don't let this to happen. I thanked the Lord for that.
***
"Get in" I said while I put on the hoodie and laid down. He got in with a cup of water and put it in the little closet beside me. -"Here..." he whispered and went back to lay down next to me. I saw him being nervous if I'm comfortable with sleeping with him so he just laid and closed his eyes immediately. I smiled a little.
-"Why are you pretending like we didn't just..." kind of risky but I had to.
I saw him smirking a little but he definitely controlled that fast.
-"That doesn't have to do anything with your situation. I don't wanna bother you."
-"Come closer it's okay..."
He opened his eyes and looked at me.
-"Closer?" He asked.
-"Mhm.."
he slowly came closer to me.
-"How do you feel?" I asked me that often.
-"I'm okay now.. thank you so much. If it wasn't you I could've just get waisted for the whole night."
-"But why? There has to be a reason Felix. Is the work stressing you? Is it too exhausting for you to be a model right now?" He asked putting my hair behind my ear.
-"No, it's not that."
-"Then what is it... come on tell me already."
I took a deep breath as he wanted to know so much.
-"Remember when we were in the restaurant the other night..and I told you that I had a person by my side.. that"
-"Yes.." he said petting my hair.
-"Well... he called me tonight in the after party."
-"He did?"
-"Yeah.."
-"Uh, sorry for cutting you, you have something black under your eye hold on.."
-"It's mascara, it ruined when I cried, it's okay."
He gently touched my face and placed his thumb under my eyes wiping gently. I looked at him and smiled.
-"Thank you.. but that can't get out that easily."
-"Is that so?"
I nodded.
-"Then how do you get it out, I wanna see you without any makeup." He stood up and got out of his closet wet wipes. He came back to me and started wiping my whole face, removing my makeup.
-"Why do you help me so much..?" I dared to ask.
-"Because you're special to me."
I opened my eyes and looked at him.
-"What do you mean by special.."
-"I mean exactly what you think, princess."
He said continuing cleaning my eyes then he stopped at my lips cleaning slower as he couldn't stop looking at them. For a moment he did not move at all he just starred at my lips, blinking.
-"Louis.." I whispered as I looked at him.
He raised both of his eyebrows continuing staring at my lips.
-"Louis?" I said a little bit louder.
-"Oooh... yeah? Yeah yeah" He looked at me and rolled to the other side and left the wipe in the closet beside him.
-"Sorry.. for that." He said laying down closer to me again. -"It's just.. yeah, sorry, what were you saying, I'm so so sorry for cutting you I just wanted to clean your face so that you sleep better."
I looked at him and kissed him once as he felt weak immediately.
-"Uh" he laughed and shook his head fastly. -"Wow, man."
I laughed at his reaction. -"What are you doing?"
-"Felix... your lips are.." he sighed
-"What are they..?" I looked at him laughing.
-"I'm sorry I'll be right back.." he stood up and when out.
I stayed alone for a bit after about five minutes Louis came and laid down beside me again.
-"You should get some sleep now.. your work is serious and responsible Felix. You work too much. I think this where your stress comes from. Tomorrow you're gonna have to do something again. You are famous and you always do something, you must rest."
-"You're right." I shook my head as he turned off the lamp.
-"Good night." I said.
-"Good night, princess."
-"I like where you're calling me that."
-"You do?" He asked and looked at me. As my lamp was still and we could see each other.
-"Yeah, it's cute."
He smiled.
-"I'm happy you like it."
***
After a while Louis fell asleep as I rolled around bed for twenty minutes being stressed out again. I couldn't really sleep but out of the tiredness I have from the show tonight my body just rested and I didn't realise how exactly I fell asleep.