Janes step-brother ~Byler~

twenty one

It has been almost two weeks, still haven't heard a peak from Will. I wasn't expecting anything but I just want to know if he's okay, if he truly meant his words. The four words running around my head.

Every-time I hear them in my head I couldn't help the smile across my face. I know what type of conversation it was but... he loves me. He loves me too. He loves me back even though we met just over a month ago yet it felt like forever.

All those memories of sneaking into his room at least once everyday I was in his room even twice. It was halfway through January, we met December 1st, but didn't talk till god I don't even know, yet I'm already fucking hooked.

The feeling in his lips on mine, on mine neck. I've been craving that feel back for two weeks but I don't know how to talk to him or if he wanted me to talk to him.

Sitting in the school cafeteria playing around with my food on the plate. The feeling of two people sitting in front of me, placing their trays down on the table. Looking up to see my two best friends; Lucas and Dustin.

The girls was at cheerleading- well Jane is and Max went to go and support her as every-time I went they girls couldn't keep their eyes off of me. I mean can you blame them?

I'm only joking.

Maybe. I know I'm cute and shit but that's okay because Will insists I think that- oh fuck I miss that asshole.

The two idiots across the table were beaming their smiles at me, I was doing the same only because of those four fucking words.

"Why you two so smiley?" I asked among the two look at each other.

"Dustin got a date to the dance." Lucas replied nudging Dustin -whom was in fact a blushing mess- Lucas laughs slightly at him.

"Oh my goodness Dustin! Who is it?" I asked high-fiving him.

"Just some girl on the chess team who is really sweet. She had her hair in braids and apparently had her eyes on me for a while." Dustin was smiling as he talked and talked and honestly I couldn't be happier for him. With his disability and his lack of teeth it's been hard for him to find someone who truly understands him. Even with his dimple smile.

"So Mike." Lucas spoke. "Why you all smiley?" He wiggled his eyebrows. The pair have been asking and asking for me to ask Jane to the dance and I never gave them an answer I would just change the subject.

"It's nothing." I smiled brightly at my food.

"I love you too"

"Clearly it is your all red, the corner of your lips are reaching to your ears." Dustin lean forward. "Soo? Spill the beans man."

Would it matter if I tell them? They're my best friends? They would support me in anything right?

Fuck it.

"I'm in love with Janes step-brother."

The words were out. The truth was put- well kinda.

"What." Was all what Lucas said and Dustin was just like frozen in time.

"What?" My smile was gone as I drop the plastic fork.

"You cannot be in love with Will." Dustin snapped out of nowhere. Shock ran through me. Dustin has never yelled not like that anyway.

Most eyes fell on us making me cut a glare at Dustin. But I couldn't hold it. My glare softened as I just stare at him.

"Dustin please."

"It won't simply work out, he doesn't recognise you, you're a minor and also he's your best friend's brother." Lucas says making me shake my head.

"He-he loves me too, ever since that day we studied in my basement I've been hanging out with him, sneaking into his bedroom at night sometimes he would sneak into mine but... ever since that party, ever since that kiss-"

"Kiss? You fucking kissed him?" Lucas rolled his hands over his face. My heart was thumping in my chest.

They don't support me... they don't support us. They don't support me...their fucking friend.

"What about the dance?" Dustin turns to me making me frown and brows knit together. "Mike... Jane. You and Jane. Jane and you. Everyone excepts you to take her to the dance." He explains.

No. Why? Why does it have to be me?

"Are you fucking kidding me? Why does my options have to be limited to one fucking person?" I practically shout.

"Mike-"

"No. I can't. I promised Will that I don't see anything for her and I don't." I sink into my chair speaking almost in a whisper.

Why can't I be me? Why does Jane have to run my life? She's my best friend along with the other three. Why does she have to be the one I have to love?

"Are you guys even together? You and Will?" Lucas asked making look right at him.
I was dead silent. The next thing I say I just going to make everything fall apart.

"Well no-"

"Well there. Just take her to the dance, make her happy, become prom king and queen. You can't hurt her-"

"What about my feelings Dustin?" I cut him off leaning forward to the table. "What about what I want? What about my choices? What if I want to be selfish for once and be with the man I fucking love?" Holding tears at bay was hard enough, I've been trying not to have a so called break down because I missed him, but right now I missed him more than ever. He's the only one who gets me.

"Right now that doesn't matter, she's the girl in the relationship, make her happy." Lucas says Dustin agreeing.

Relationship? What fucking relationship?

"She's expecting you to take her." Dustin soon said.

Falling back into my chair staring right at my plate. My mood was killed, Will wasn't talking to me. Just the stupid four words running through my head.

They couldn't even bring a smile to my face anymore.

I'm going to have to take Jane to the fucking dance.