Why me? Finished

13.

Wooyoung pov

San was about to leave the country and I didn't hear anything from him. I left messages but they ended up as unread.
New articles had appeared.

Who is the mysterious man San from Ateez been meeting.
Is San from Ateez gay?
Will this affect Ateez and San's career?

My friends supported me and after I told them the whole story, they were both happy for me and worried.
They came over with ice cream, snacks and a few bottles of Soju for a movie night to cheer me up and I was so thankful for my friends.
"Have you heard from him?" Minji asked
"No, he doesn't even read my messages"
"It'll be ok, maybe he needs to lay low for a while"
I started crying and we ended up in a group hug, they did their best to comfort me.
"So what movie are we gonna watch?" Dohyun asked to lighten the mood. "A comedy please" I said and crawled up under a blanket.
The evening continued with some laughter and games despite my sad mood. We drank Soju and talked until early morning. Jun and Dohyun fell asleep first Minho and Haeun needed to go home so it was just me Hajoon and Minji left awake.
"Woo, what are you going to do?"
"I don't know. He doesn't answer when I text or call so what can I do"
"Do you like him a lot? Isn't better to maybe let it go"
"I love him" I said looking down fiddling my thumbs
"Oh" they both said at the same time sounding a little shocked
"I ruined everything" my eyes were tearing up again
"I'm sure he'll get back to you, just wait a little longer".

Days passed without hearing from him. I knew he had left and I started to lose hope.
Going to school was horrible, people were looking at me, whispering and pointing. "How can San be with him?" "I didn't know he was Gay." "Why would San be with him, it must be fake" "He just wants attention"
The days went by painfully slowly, I never ate lunch in the cafeteria because I couldn't bear everyone's stares and comments.

The school day finally ended and on the way home I was scrolling through the news when an article caught my eye. I stopped and looked at it and my heart dropped.

"San comments and apologizes for his behavior in a public apology" I felt tears burning behind my eyelids and I didn't want to read anymore but I continued anyway.

Hello, this is Choi San from Ateez
You must all have heard the news that is circling around and I sincerely apologize for disappointing my fans. The rumors are false and I promise to do my best to make it up to you and for you to trust me again. I know I've let you all down greatly and I promise it won't happen again. Ateez and Atiny mean the world to me and I hope my actions won't hurt my fellow members. I hope I will see you on our upcoming tour and that we can put this all behind us and enjoy our time together. Again I'm so sorry for disappointing you.
Choi San.

I started crying, I couldn't breathe. I hit my chest to make it stop hurting. My breathing became shallow and I felt dizzy. I sat down on the sidewalk trying to calm down but I couldn't. My heart was hurting so bad, "Woo!" I heard someone yell but the ringing in my ears was too loud. I could feel arms around me and someone trying to calm me down. I fell into the embrace. "Woo, what happened?" I heard Minho. I picked my phone up from the ground and gave it to him. "What the fuck!!"
Now I could hear more voices. They were shouting and swearing but I couldn't register what they were saying.
I cried into Minho's chest until I heard Minji's calm voice "Woo, let's go home" I got up and she gave me a hug before talking my arm walking back to my place.

I hadn't left my bed for I don't know how many days. I didn't want to be awake, it hurt to much.
Still I looked him up on my computer

He looked happy
Was he really happy?
I knew him, he couldn't possibly be ok could he. It's just for show. I cried my self to sleep.
I let my phone's battery die not wanting to talk to anyone. Lying here alone was all I wanted. And I would stay here until he came back to me.