Lost in Lies

Chapter 13

Kim was sitting on the sofa in his hotel room, too wired to sleep but to tired to do anything productive. There was only so much a human body, even one as fit as Kim's, could go through before it reached the point where the brain couldn't shut off anymore. Kim had been having insomnia for years but never this bad before, he had reached that point in the past week, unable to sleep even in the few hours set aside for him to do so. So he had found himself sat on the sofa, with only the side lamp for illumination, slowly fingering the strings of his guitar and trying to sooth his overtired mind. Instead, what had happened was, out of the aimless plucking of strings and day dreaming (if it could be called daydreaming when you were awake at 4am) the outline of a song had begun to emerge. As Kim had been having problems getting inspiration for the new single he was expected to write, and something that just came to him out of the blue was like a gift. One he wasn't going to pass up no matter how exhausted he was.

Over, I can't believe it's over

He hummed the words almost to himself, the almost wistful tone filling the room, as he slowly continued to run his fingers along the strings of the well-loved instrument. Although he didn't have a full song yet in his mind, he did have some lines, and a good idea of where he wanted it to go.

Listen, I hope that you can hear me

The guitar got stronger, almost drowning out the final lines had come up with to go with the haunting melody.

Shadows, you took away the shadows

Before you, life was black and white

The strumming stopped and Kim lifted his head to look out the window. He was currently in Beijing, China, and the world looked so similar and yet different to the one he knew, a bit like the feeling he had inside at the moment. People were going about their lives, sleeping in their homes or enjoying the night life, and yet here he was in a country that wasn't his, writing a song about his feelings about a relationship that had never really happened.

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Nile arrived at Kim's room around 9am. He had wanted to arrive earlier but had awoken to yet another shitstorm surrounding Kim and Chay he needed to get a handle on first. This whole thing was becoming a nightmare and the studio was needing to have people watching the internet almost 24 hours a day and see what these 'journalists', and he used the term lightly, would come up with next. He had no idea what had gone on with Kim and Chay that night in Kim's apartment, but Kim had seemed upset when speaking to him the day after. Chay on the other hand had seemed fine with everything and the two had gone on to the fan meet with no problems at all. It had been the day after the shit had hit the fan, and it hadn't stopped since. Maybe Kim had been right and allowing Chay to follow Kim up to his room had been a dumb idea, but they were both adults and telling them where to stick their cocks was beyond his job description!

Knocking on the door, because at 9am Kim would surely be awake, Nile sighed. He really didn't want to have this conversation with Kim this morning but there was only so much the agency and himself could do, at some point this had to be solved by Kim and Chay themselves, and Kim was headed home tonight, back to Bangkok, back to the mess, and back to Chay. Nile loved his job most of the time, he loved working with Kim, even if he was a demanding and neurotic little shit! But when it came to interfering with things that should be personal, Nile hated that he was the one who needed to play big brother and get involved. Sometimes he wished more people would listen to stars when they said that they wanted fans to follow their public image but leave their private life alone, but that was just a dream, it was never going to happen. The door had opened while Nile was away with his own thoughts, there Kim stood in an oversized t-shirt and baggy trousers, Nile fought back a smile as he wondered if Kim knew he looked the farthest from an Idol as it was possible to get.