Lost in Lies

Chapter 10

The door had barely even closed before Chay felt the small space between himself and Kim disappear. The apartment lights were on and the whole place was lit up with an inviting hue, but as he took his third step inside, an arm wrapped around his waist preventing him from going any further. Kim stood behind him, head resting on his shoulder and arm wound around his stomach. The feeling of Kim's chest next to his back was also making it hard to focus.

'I didn't think you would follow me!....I hoped....but.....!' Kim almost whispered, the words making Chay shiver as the hot breath bushed past his ear.

Chay hadn't been able to make himself come into this room, but now he was here he needed to know something before he went any further, and to do so he needed to disengage himself from the extremely handsome and distracting man behind him. Kim's arm tightened as he began nosing gently at Chay's neck, trying to push the t shirt sideways a little and give room for him to plant a chaste kiss on the now bare skin. Chay just wanted to lean back into the touch of the older man, relax onto the firm chest he knew was behind him. He wanted Kim, but first he needed to know that what Nile said was true, that he wasn't fooling himself into thinking Kim wanted him as well.

'Kim, I need to talk to you.' Chay managed to get out with effort.

God if he was this weak for the other man already what would he be like if this even did go any further!

'Ok!' Kim responded, without making any move either his hand or mouth from their places.

Chay somehow managed to find the strength to give Kim's hand a small push, it wasn't anywhere close to being hard enough to break the grip, but Kim seemed to get the hint and dropped the arm on his own. Lifting his head away from the younger mans neck, Kim looked him in the face before taking a step back and giving Chay some space. Whatever it was Chay wanted to speak to him about it was obvious he was serious, and if Chay was serious then he needed to somehow focus and listen.

'OK, take a seat.' Kim rasped out, pointing over to the sofas in the main sitting area.

Chay stared at him with a look Kim didn't have the braincells spare to decipher at the moment, too much of his energy was going into being polite and actually listening to what Chay was worried about, rather than just pinning the younger man to the nearest available surface. Normally when he was around Chay it was hard, and getting harder, to keep his libido and physical responses in check. Here in his own home, alone with the younger man, and with enough alcohol running through his system to make his self-control a little .........slippery.........Chay was asking for the almost impossible in wanting him to have an actual conversation!

Making sure he sat on the separate sofa to Chay, so he couldn't 'accidently' reach over and do something stupid! Kim waited uncomfortably. The two sat looking at each other for a moment, until Kim wanted to growl.

Damn it Chay........your killing me here.........you wanted to talk so talk........if I open my mouth right now it won't be a conversation we will be having!

Chay eventually realised Kim was not going to speak and squeezed his eyes closed for a moment. Well, I guess it was me who said we needed to talk......he thought to himself before opening them. Kim was still sat on the opposite side of the room, unmoving, and Chay couldn't quite work out how the clingy man who had been kissing his neck had suddenly turned into the man who was sitting all stiff and uncomfortable looking, on the opposite sofa, just because he had said the word 'talk'.

Squaring his shoulders Chay began speaking, it was now or never, however his body didn't seem to get the message and his words tripped over each other as they raced out of his mouth.