Lost in Lies

Chapter 5

Chay just wants to curl up in his bed, cover his head with the duvet, and pretend the outside world no longer exists. This last few weeks have been awful......not awful as in horrible........not really.......but awful as in.......as in......tremendously embarrassing!

First there was the 'boyfriend Lessons' with Nile, which he had thought were embarrassing at the time but became almost nothing compared to how the following weeks went by. Then He went to the photo shoot and saw Kim dressed in all those outfits, outfits that were obviously designed to show off his figure. But Chay hadn't been able to help looking......looking and imagining! WIK had been his idol for years and seeing Kim dressed up like that had just made him imagine things......things he seriously shouldn't be. It hadn't been helped of course by the mess with Deon, in which Kim had come up to him like a knight in shining armour and wrapped his arm possessively around his waist as if claiming him as his. Thankfully he had been sent home straight after that and had been busy with classes the day after so hadn't needed to return. Although the look Nile had given both him and Kim during that time seemed odd, the elder man had looked at them in complete disbelief, almost like Kim had grown another head or something. He knew from what Nile had told him that Kim didn't really like touching other people, but it couldn't that astonishing that Kim had hugged him.......

could it?

Confusion aside, he had thought the embarrassment had been over for a while...........he'd been wrong.

Last week, the week after the photo session, Kim had needed to film a video for his single, and Chay had been invited to attend, or rather ordered to, by Nile. Chay had been incredibly naïve in thinking that watching Kim pose for the photos had gotten him ready for the video shoot.

It didn't!

Not only was Kim moving a lot more, but he was also, somehow, wearing less! The video was set in some kind of fantasy future, where apparently people wore almost see-through tops and paint on trousers. There had been one scene in the video where Kim, who was only wearing a semi-transparent, clingy top anyway, had needed to unbutton the shirt and slide it from his shoulders before reclining on a bed with both arms tucked under his head. Chay had known from seeing past video's that Kim was more muscled than his frame would suggest, but somehow seeing it in reality! Seeing Kim stripping off so blatantly, lying on a bed in such a suggestive way while that melodious voice emerged from his throat, the whole thing had had Chay struggling to find enough saliva to swallow. In fact it seemed like Kim had been either topless or undressing for most of the two days he had been there to watch the shoot and he had wanted to scream at the director that Kim could not possibly be allowed to be shown on TV like this, that such views should only be kept for? For whom exactly? Chay wasn't anyone to Kim, not really.

He wished his subconscious had gotten this message though as he had awoken in the mornings, more than a few times, in the last few weeks, not only mentally aware that he had been dreaming of Kim in some improper ways (mostly involving beds and no tops thanks to the damn video shoot), but also physically aware of the responses those dreams had caused. Each time a cold shower and firm mental self-scolding had done the trick, but not for long.

He had agreed to be Kim's......no WIK's........pretend boyfriend......Kim was relying on him to be professional about this! All these feelings and dreams where frankly mortifying and shameful..........and he wanted to bury his head under the pillow rather than meet up with Kim later as they had agreed.

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Unknowing about Chay's current, almost total, embarrassment, Kim was back in his apartment working out and clearing his head. For him, working out in his small gym was almost like meditating, you could work out your body while at the same time clear your mind of any unnecessary distractions. It was necessary for any idol to be fit, but also to be able to focus on the matter at hand in any situation, and he had always been able to manage the two with no problems. This had been before two weeks ago when a certain young boy he had been mentoring had been magically transformed into his boyfriend. While he had simply been Chay's mentor he had managed to keep all his thoughts at bay, but as soon as Nile came up with that insane plan, and Chay had agreed to it!