Constellations Of The Mind

To Whom I Formally Loved

If only you knew
How my heart used to sing for you,
If only you knew
How standing deprived of your love made me bluer than blue,
If only you knew
How ardently I thought of you,
Would you take another look, another glance, just one more peek at me?

Or maybe you did know
And simply did not care enough to permit affection for me to grow.
And if I had known that you knew
Would I still weep over never holding you?

Maybe so.
But I'm glad that I've ultimately let those feelings go.

You crafted a fool of me.
If one had to pay for the tears they caused to trail down another's cheek, you'd certainly have an outstanding fee.

I'm sorry I wasted my time.
Higher and higher I will climb,
And I'll leave you behind.

You are an agony of my past.
A yearning that I could never surpass.
But today I'll carve it into stone.
I think, inside, I've finally grown.

I can't love you
Because you don't love me.
So, that settles it.
I'll, at last, let you be.