Pact

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Sakusa carefully lines himself at your entrance. He looks at your face, seeing your eyes shut tight. "I promise I'll be gentle." He slowly starts inserting himself, letting out a low moans as your walls clench around him. "Shit. I know you said you haven't done this before, but I wasn't expecting it to be this tight."

You bite your lower lip, holding yourself back from making a single noise. You turn your head away, not letting him see your full face.

He looks down at you, not stopping with his slow movements. "You don't have to hold back, you know. It'll make me feel better if you let your voice out a little."

You don't dare to look at him, keeping your eyes shut tight. "Kiyoomi... this feels weird."

The dark haired man lets out a breathy chuckle, accidentally thrusting into you harder than he intended, which made you let out a fairly loud moan. "What do you mean by it feeling weird? Do you mean it's good? New? Are you just not used to it?" He tries to concentrate on going easy on you, but every part of him wanted to go much faster than this current pace.

You clench your hands into fists. "We - we shouldn't be doing this. Our relationship isn't even real. Isn't this going too far?"

The outside hitter frowns, eyes glaring at you. He snaps his hips harshly, making you moan loudly. He continuously sped up his thrusts. "If this is how far I need to go to show you... I'll show you that you're more than just a deal I made. You mean more to me than that."

"Wha-" You get cut off when he thrusts into you even harder. You're unable to form any words, slowly starting to moan continuously. Even if you wanted to think, you wouldn't be able to focus on any train of thought. You were starting to completely melt into the pleasure of what was happening.

Sakusa was relentless. He refused to slowly down or stop. Not until he was finished. He needed to get his feelings through to you, or at least try to. He was hoping this worked, but he had another idea in case you couoldn't catch on. Maybe, just maybe, he'd be willing to fully confess to you. If it comes to that, he's prepared to make you his real lover, not just keep you around as part of a deal.

"Y/n. Do you at least understand now? I don't want to keep up this act. I love you. Be my real lover." He gave a few more thrusts, cumming and slowing to a stop. He pulls out. "Shit. Sorry. I didn't mean to come inside."

You're panting, desperately trying to catch your breath. You cover your eyes with your arm, heat building in your face. "Kiyoomi... since when? When did this stop being an act to you?"

He freezes, unable to look at you. "The day I first started avoiding you, I realized I didn't like how things were. I have feelings for you, and I don't want to run and hide anymore. I'd rather just face this and see where we go from there." He closes his eyes tightly, hoping he wasn't going to regret any of this. "What do you wanna do? Tell me your feelings."

"If I'm being completely honest, I have no clue. I never took the time since this was just a deal to get people off our backs. I never would've imagined that either of us would end up catching feelings. I don't know what steps to take going forward. Whether we call this off, stop faking and become real, or just keep things how they are. Either way someone might be upset if they're feelings aren't being listened to. Right now, I need to figure things out. I'm ok with still seeing you as often as you'd like. I just don't know if we should change anything at the moment. If you want to become a real couple, then I'm going to need to figure out my own feelings."

"Of course. Your feelings are very important to me."

You sigh, closing your eyes under your arm. "It'll take a while. I'm focused more on my novel right now. Maybe when I've completed it and have some free time, I'll be able to think it over and give you an answer. Until then, I don't see any reason to change how things are right now."

Sakusa would be lying if he didn't say he was disappointed, but he kind of saw this coming. His timing was horrible. He knew how busy you are, yet he still felt the need to be completely honest with you. "I understand. Take your time. If you want me to leave tonight, I'll go."

With your free arm, you grab him and stop him from trying to get up. "Stay the night. It's too late for either of us to be going anywhere. If you wanna stay in here with me, feel free. Just... no more sexual stuff until further notice."

"Understood." He sighs, moving to grab his change of clothes from the other room.

You stop him, moving to the edge of the bed and wrapping your arms around his torso. "What are you doing?"

"I was going to get some clothes to put on."

You feel embarrassed, your face feeling like it's on fire. "You - you don't have to do that right now. Just climb into bed and let's go to sleep."

The curly haired man blushes, slowly turning in your arms to face you. "If you say so." Cautiously, he gets back on the bed and lays down next to where you're sitting. He turns his back to you, leaving plenty of space in between you two. "Goodnight, Y/n."

"Goodnight, Kiyoomi." You lay down, back to him. You take deep breaths, closing your eyes. But it takes you quite a while before you can finally drift off to sleep.

While you're unconscious, the scene of what happened just moments ago in your bed play on repeat while you sleep.