Teri Meri Kahani

6. I am with you

MANSI'S POV:-

I regret it. I regret all of it. I freaking regret letting my emotions take a toll on me and distracting me. Because, right now, I am facing the worst nightmare of my life. The Monthly Review test. I've always been the least worried about these tests as I've always found them to be easy. It's just the revision test of everything done during that particular month and me being me, used to know everything going on in the classes, used to nail those tests. But now, looking at the question paper, I feel as if I've never even seen these concepts anywhere. I mean, I know it was done in the class but I had now idea of what that $hit was. I was completely unaware of my surroundings and now that I think about it, it was my mistake. I shouldn't have paid heed to those useless feelings I had gained. Dad was right, everyone faces challenges in life and have to choose between two things, and one must be wise enough to choose the right. But I guess I chose the wrong thing.

I was too focused on forgetting my feelings on Shantanu that I forgot that I had to focus on study primarily and messed up big time. Now as I look at the question paper, I regret all of it. But was it of any use? a Big no! I prayed once before picking up my pen and just started scribbling whatever made sense to me, and by the time I ended my test, I knew just pass was a high expectation too! I came out of the exam hall with my head down and mood off. I know today's test didn't go well. it went horrible to be honest and I don't know how I am going to face dad and maa after this. I mean, they're sweet and never question me on my low grades. In fact they encourage me to do well on the next test and never lose faith in me. It's their faith in me that makes me want to work hard and score well just to see that proud smile on their face. But the fact that it won't be the case today broke my heart. Evaluation process was very fast in our school and we would get the result by the end of the day. I usually used to look forward to the results but not today. In fact, today I wished that somehow my answer script would be burnt.

But things don't go how we want them to do they?

I came out of my own world filled with despair, when I felt a strong yet warm arm wrapping around my neck and pulling me closer.

It was my silly best friend, Shantanu. No bonus points for guessing ya'll..!

I made an irritated sound with my tongue and pushed him away slightly. Yeah yeah I know it wasn't his mistake but who cares? I want to vent my anger right now. Anyhow it was because of him that I wasn't able to concentrate during classes, doesn't matter if it was indirectly or even if he didn't know anything about it.

He pulled me towards him once again, but with a stronger grip. And when I struggled to get out of his hold and wasn't able to, I shouted at him. Yeah, that's how I release my anger.

MANSI: Kya hai tera haan? ek baar samajh nhi aata jab door kiya toh? wapis se kyu kheech raha hai? thodi buddhi bachi bhi hai yaa fir woh bhi bech aaya hai?

(what is your problem huh? don't you understand once when I pushed you away? Why are you pulling me towards you yet again huh? do you have atleast a little sense left in you or have you sold that as well?)

$hit! I went over-board! I shouldn't have been this rude. He had done nothing wrong yet I yelled at him. Normal bickering was okay but what I said just now was too rude. No justification could be given for my action.

He looked at me with a blank expression and I already felt like crying. He's the only one I who can comfort me no matter what the problem is and now I hurt him. My lower started to wobble as I was about to cry. I slowly took a step towards him while uttering his name. Hell I even stuttered.

MANSI: S-shantanu...

He placed a finger on my lips, indicating me to stay silent and I found that gesture hella attractive. Something must be wrong with me right? as if anything was going right these days. He held my hand and pulled me with him, indicating me walk and I followed him silently. His grip was firm but wasn't anything that could hurt me. He always behaved with care whenever he was with me. Total gentleman. He led me towards the park in front of our school and we entered it. We used to visit this park after school sometimes when weren't in the mood to return home early. He took me towards our usual place, it was the secluded part of the park with only two swings. We used to sit on these swings and while away our time by gossiping about everything and anything in this world. But today it was different. He was silent as hell and I was on the verge of crying. He made me sit on the swing while I looked up at him with puppy eyes.