Teri Meri Kahani

18. Dating

MANSI's POV:

As I look at myself in the mirror, all I could utter is perfect. I look perfect. A while embroidered kurta with baggy jeans, a watch adoring my wrist, kajal filling my eyes and slight tinted lip balm to protect my lips from drying. And as usual, my body wash was

enough for my signature jasmine scent.

My hair were all glossy and shiny with a bit of bounce which here half open as a part of them were held with a hair clip at the back of my head. Anyone who would see me would say what I said. Perfect. Except for one thing..

I wasn't smiling.

I wasn't smiling truly atleast.

All I could do at this point was to present a fake smile to people when they expected one. But it was getting tiring for me. I was too tired to pretend anymore that I am happy when I am not. I know all of this is going on too long, all of this sad phase but it is what it is. Everyone has this one phase in life where nothing seems right and I was going through mine right now. All I know is, not matter how long this phase lasts, I will come out of it. I will come out of it even stronger. I will come out of it being so independent that, next time when I look at myself in the mirror, I would utter the same word. Perfect. But with my shoulders being broadly held with pride and head held high. A smile would adore my face, and a genuine one at that.

This is what I would be.

I would be Mansi Tiwari, but an extremely confident one.

With this newly found determination, I picked up my bag and left for school, not before saying bye to my lovely family with smooches on their cheeks.

Though all along the journey to school, I was freaking out because I had no one beside me to calm me down, I still had that fire in me. That determination that I would fight it all. I would fight everything with all I have in me and I'll make sure to slay.

With every step I take, I could feel myself shivering but the fire in me never died. Not even close. Everyone must be thinking that its just about entering the school gate, there's nothing so great in that.

But no, its not that simple. Sometimes, a few problems that seem really petty to us, might be so damn big and serious for others. These problems might be so small for a few people that wouldn't even bother to consider those. But for a few people, those problems are so huge, that they could even turn a person's life upside down and destroy them completely if he/she doesn't know how to deal with it.

It's simple, just like studies. A person who's good at studies will never know what the other person feels. No matter how much he/she tries to convey that they understand not everyone's mind is as sharp as theirs and its completely okay, they could never understand what the person with average grades feels like. People feel insecure. They feel disgusted on themselves because they aren't able to solve the problems which others have solutions for on the tip of their fingers. And this is where their mental health starts deteriorating. And people enter that infinite pit of darkness from where, they never seem to able to return.

A few things that look shallow, are soo deep that its depth can't be sensed.

And that is why, people should never try to comment on what others are insecure about. Their weaknesses might be their strength someday in the future, but that is only possible when they're confident enough to work on themselves.

And me, no matter how scared I am right now, all I know is I will come out of it. Whatever the social anxiety I have, I would overcome it and I would overcome it so well that I wouldn't even hesitate before having humorous talks with strangers,

Uhh- did I just get too confident? more than required? Yes I guess?

but who cares, the fire in me can make me blurt out many things.