Chapter 38

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by _jaywish

by _jaywish

PDnim called me in for interviews, hence here I am in my car, driving to different locations. These 4 days were jam-packed, and Minseo's absence made it worse, but I do hope for things to get better. I lean back in the seat, my hand resting on my phone, hoping for a text, a sign from her. Come on, Minseo, just one message.

The car pulls up at the first stop- an interview at a popular radio station. I take a deep breath, put on my game face, and step out, greeted by the usual buzz of excitement. Fans have gathered outside, cheering, waving banners, and holding up posters with my name. It gives me a jolt of energy, but underneath it all, I still feel incomplete.

As I walk into the station, I'm greeted by the staff, and we quickly go over the schedule. There's a live performance coming up after the interview- another round of promoting TOO MUCH. The song has been doing well, better than expected, but without Minseo, the success feels hollow.

I shake hands with the DJ, smile for the camera, and take a seat behind the mic. This is what I'm supposed to do. Focus. Be professional. Don't let them see how you're feeling inside.

"Jungkook! It's great to have you here. The new song TOO MUCH with Kid LAROI and Central Cee is blowing up. How's it been working with those guys?" the DJ asks, his voice full of enthusiasm.

I smile, though it feels a bit forced. "It's been amazing. Kid LAROI and Central Cee are both incredibly talented, and working with them was a really good experience. The vibe on set was crazy, and the energy just flowed into the song."

The DJ nods, his eyes lighting up. "The fans love it. The track has such a fresh, international sound. Did you expect this kind of response?"

I shrug slightly, trying to seem casual. "We hoped it would do well, but you never really know until it's out there. The fans have been super supportive, so we're really grateful."

I should feel proud, excited even. This song is killing the charts. But why does everything feel so off without her?

The interview continues, with questions about the song, my career, and upcoming projects. I answer them all, but my mind keeps drifting back to Minseo. Is she watching this right now? Does she even care?

The interview wraps up, and the staff prepares for my live performance. I step onto the stage, adjusting my in-ears, feeling the familiar rush of adrenaline. This is where I'm supposed to shine- under the spotlight, the center of attention. But today, it's different. The energy feels off.

I launch into the first verse of TOO MUCH, my voice carrying through the speakers, but with every word, I feel the weight of her absence. Minseo should be here. I should be singing this for her.

The beat drops, and I try to focus, putting everything into the performance. The fans are cheering, the camera's rolling, but deep inside, something's missing. No matter how loud the music gets, the emptiness remains.

After the performance, I'm back in the car, heading to the next location. Another interview. Another performance. Another round of smiles and energy that feels so disconnected from what's really going on in my heart. How long can I keep doing this without her?

As I scroll through my phone, checking social media, the praise for TOO MUCH is overwhelming. Fans love it. ARMY is hyped. But all I can think about is how Minseo hasn't texted me once. I thought she'd at least say something after hearing the song, after seeing the effort I've put in these past few days. But nothing. Maybe she's really done with me. Maybe this break is something more permanent.

PDnim calls again, reminding me of the schedule. I still have two more stops today. Two more places where I have to smile and pretend everything's fine. Just breathe, Jungkook. You can do this. I'm sorry, Minseo. I wish you could see how much this is hurting me.

A thought hits me. What if I wrote a song for her? Something personal, something that shows her how loyal I've always been. A song that tells her everything I can't seem to say in person.

The idea starts to take root, and suddenly, I feel a spark of hope. Yes. That's it. I'll write a song for Minseo. One that proves my loyalty. One that shows her I'm not like the rumors. This is how I'll reach her. She might be distant now, but if she hears it- if she understands what's really in my heart- maybe, just maybe, things will turn around.

As the interview continues, I can't stop thinking about the song. I've already got the melody playing in my head, the lyrics starting to form. It's going to be raw, honest. A song about loyalty, about staying true no matter what the world throws at us. This is how I'll prove it to her. This is how I'll win her back.