𝗗𝗘𝗦𝗜𝗥𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗛𝗘𝗥

𝘈𝘍𝘍𝘈𝘐𝘙🔞🔥

I knew Sunghoon was most likely asleep when I came home to a dark apartment. The only light noticed was the flickering light on the oven that read 1:04 a.m.

I felt awful. I stepped in the show
and let the steaming, water stream down my skin. The warm water was exhilarating. I felt the tension in my shoulders being released as I shut my eyes and breathed slowly.

I couldn't for the life of me understand why staying clear of Ruka was so hard for me.

I could have left the second I saw
her at the gym. I could have left when Sunghoon insisted we go back to Ruka's club.

But like a dumb-ass I stayed and gave Ruka the satisfaction of knowing she could manipulate me. I wanted to
be married. I wanted to restore my marriage. I wanted a family. I wanted a baby.

But wanting Ruka contradicted my aspirations. What kind of relationship could I have with a woman who owned a sex club? I didn't necessarily want a future with Ruka but I needed to know where this affair would lead.

What would I gain from destroying everything I had? I felt the tears burn the back of my eyes, before they poured down my face in a stream of gloom. After I washed the guilt and my infidelity off my skin, I dressed myself and climbed into bed. I curled my arm around Sunghoon snuggling into his warm body.

"I'm sorry, Hon." I whispered.

Even though I knew there was a good chance he hadn't heard me.
He stretched her arms and legs, then he turned over. So that he was facing me. He looped his arm around me.

"I'm sorry too." He whispered, kissing me on the forehead. Then we fell into a deep slumber.

Later that day, I fully intended to tell Ruka that we could no longer see each other and mean it.

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That was before she opened the door of her apartment wearing only a pair of sports bra and workout pants.
I lost my fucking mind.

The mere sight of her chest expanding and contracting as she heaved thick puffs of air was such a turn-on.

Ruka's flesh was blemished with black red markings and small welts that were scattered across her chest, arms, and back.

Even still, her body was incredible.
My eyes narrowed to the dragon on her forearm, then I inspected some of the quotes that were inscribed on the terrain of her body.

"I'm so glad I didn't have to drag you here."

Ruka's apartment was incredible. The layout was spectacular. The oak floors looked freshly polished. Her apartment was not what I expected.

It was immaculate. Spacious. Open. The view of Seoul's skyline from her apartment was nothing short of breath-taking.

"This is an incredible apartment. It's nothing like what I expected."

"Thank you."

I noticed Ruka's curious eyes traveling over the curves of my body. With that familiar, aggressive stare that sent a sharp sensation down under.

"Why are you always looking at me like that?" I asked.

"I'm looking at you because I'm stunned by how fucking beautiful you are. I'm looking at you because you are the subject of all my fantasies. And you can't fathom how badly I want you."

My chest caved in at the force of her words. I covered the lower half of my face with my hands because she was embarrassing me. Ruka caught my wrists between her fingers and pinned my arms to the wall behind me.