𝗗𝗘𝗦𝗜𝗥𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗛𝗘𝗥

𝘛𝘐𝘛𝘈𝘕𝘐𝘊🔞

"Baby," I greeted cheerily.

"Hey, Honey," Sunghoon said as if all the life had been drained out of him.

"I'm sorry I missed your call I was going over some case files. What do you need? Are you alright?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. I don't need anything.
I just wanted to talk to you."

"How's she treating you?"

"She's very... generous."

There was a long silence on both ends.
I didn't say anything because I knew that there was something he needed to say.

"I shouldn't have let you spend a night with her. I was wrong. Forgiv―"

His words broke off when my phone was snatched out of my hand. I turned to see Ruka pressing a button that ended my phone call.

"What did you do that for?!" I raged.

"What did I say about phone calls?"

"I just wanted to talk to him for five minutes."

"We made a deal, remember? No phone calls. No distractions."

"My husband isn't a distraction!"

"Yeah, He is. Because when you're talking to him you're wasting my time with you. You have the rest of your life to talk to him. I'm asking you to be here with me Pharita for one night."

"I'm right here with you. What are you talking about?"

She shut her eyes and inhaled a big breath. "Don't call him again."

"I can't speak to him on the phone,
but you can make him the topic of discussion? What's the difference?"

"I asked about him because I want to know you," she seethed.

"That's the problem Ruka. We aren't supposed to be getting to know each other. I'm not looking for a relationship and neither are you. We are here purely for sex."

I wasn't sure how we even stumbled on this topic but it had to be addressed.
I agreed to this hoping to push this woman out of my head. But the fact was, the more time we spent together the more I liked her.

I never meant for this to become what it had and I was scared that we had gone too far.

"What are you afraid of, Pharita?"
She said gruffly, charging toward me

"Because you've been running away from me since we met."

I shrugged my shoulders. I couldn't meet her gaze.

"Tell me. What are you afraid of?"

"I'm not afraid."

"You are. I think that you're afraid of me-of our connection. You're afraid because you and I are more compatible than you and him."

Ruka stared me down waiting for me to respond.

"Yes, I am afraid. I fucking like you and I don't know how I'm suppose to forget about tonight. How am I supposed to forget about you!"

"Great. I think it's time you learn that the earth doesn't revolve around him. He's not a god. He's not the be-all and end-all. He's just the first guy you fell in love with and I can almost guarantee he won't be the last."

I felt like she had just knocked the wind out of me. I wanted to be so angry.
I wanted to scream and shout but
I couldn't. We both knew she was as right as always.

She seemed to be more in tune with my emotions, my psyche than even I was and I hated that. I hated that I couldn't fight back.

I hated that she could break me apart like it was the easiest thing on earth.
I had implored this facade that I was so strong, so independent, so poised, so in control, but Ruka shamed me.