𝗗𝗘𝗦𝗜𝗥𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗛𝗘𝗥

𝘉𝘌𝘛 𝘖𝘕 𝘠𝘖𝘜

As Ruka stepped forward I shut the door behind her and started pacing back and forth. Her eyes were gauging my movements and body language but I pretended not to notice or care.

I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that she was back in my apartment, Sunghoon being gone, or her asking me to choose her after I already made it clear that I was choosing my marriage.

The fact that Ruka was here in my apartment fighting while Sunghoon was... wherever he was, made her request much harder to ignore.

Before I started drawing conclusions and refuting my choices there was something I needed to know.

"Why'd you make me think that you were in trouble? You're not drunk. You're not even at Chiquita's club. I bet you weren't at her club at all."

I spoke with brutal detachment.

"I wasn't at her club, and neither was Chiquita. I lied. It was the only way I could get you on the phone without fearing that you'd hang up. You did ignore eight of my phone calls, Rita."

I rolled my eyes.

"We shouldn't be speaking. You shouldn't be here."

I croaked.

My eyes were burning from the tears of frustration that were spilling down my face.

"I never met anyone more bullheaded in my fucking life!" Ruka spat.

"Why do you have to be so fucking difficult? He knows about us. I love you. You love me. What's the fucking problem?"

She really didn't get it.

"My marriage and my loyalty to Sunghoon is the problem. I know that I broke my vows and I've made a lot of mistakes with you but I'm still his wife. What kind of person would I be if I gave up on the one thing I believed in more than anything else?"

I fought back.

Holding on the thin thread wishing she would just walk out and forget about me. At least, that would be the right thing to do.

The hammering of her heart was visible through the thin fabric of her shirt. The blood surged to her fists. The veins were throbbing at her temples. She moved her legs back and forth between me and the door unable to meet my eyes. Ruka stopped pacing suddenly and pressed her chest into mine.

"Pharita, a day hasn't gone by since we met that I haven't dreamt of you. You're in my head before I wake up"

"What you don't seem to understand is that this begging pleading with a woman to choose me is completely out of character for me but here I am.
If this was just about sex I would've bowed out a long time ago. I'm all in."

Ruka confessed gliding her finger along my mouth. Her thumping heartbeat matched mine.

The way she moved her cheek along the palm of my hand when I touched her like she was somehow drawn to me set my chest on fire.

I meant to just kiss Ruka once on the mouth but when her lips reacted and her arms wrapped around me I lost my fucking mind.

I miss her. I missed her so fucking much.

After fighting with Sunghoon for hours and getting nothing but his cold words, I needed Ruka's warmth. I needed someone to make me feel like I wasn't a heartless- cold bitch.

I held Ruka's face and moved my mouth with her, taking in her heavy breaths, the sweet taste of her tongue.
I felt the love and energy that sat between us stronger than before.