Eye For An Eye

Twenty

Last chapter.

Jazeel.

Finding out about Tariq I felt both heartbroken and betrayed by two women I cared about—at least that was what I felt at first.

But then I felt nothing but anger. The fact that I let two women toy with me and all for another man. I'll be honest, Amaya's betrayal hurt me more. Ersana was misbehaving and a man being behind it crossed my mind but I never thought Maya would use me just to get revenge on her friend and yet she smiled and laughed in my face.

But I guess, seeing her walk on egg shells every time I was near—it made things better. Sometimes, she put me first, even before her husband and the fact that she felt guilt and remorse, it softened things—coupled with Hayaan's explanation.

What made me bitter was realizing my fiancé proposed because she didn't want to lose. So if she's not getting him then she'll have to make do with me, that would crush any man's ego—No, anyone's ego and it really bruised mine.
Based on what I found out I knew there was no way in hell she'd just give up on him, he knew it just as much as I did. So I told him I'd need his help one day.

When she came up with the idea to go to France, I knew she was just trying to escape but I let her do it anyway. I mean, which man would let his bride, just a few weeks after getting married to move to another country for work? She thought I was hopelessly inlove and afraid of losing her that I agreed but I wanted to take my time—think things through and come up with something that would really hurt her.

I enjoyed my life without her around, actually it came with perks. Everyone wanted to comfort me and everyone treated me delicately because they thought 'he's a great husband who put his wife's needs before his, women are moved by acts of love and affection. Of course, I dated a few girls too and with genuine intentions too because I intend to take my time and make the right decision this time.

I guess it made me realize I don't need to change who I am completely because of the guilt.

I might've mentioned my sister once, about how what I did to other girls was the reason she died of depression.

My sister Raziqa, she was my favorite—just a year older than I was. She was a very naive girl, sometimes it bothered my mother. She was older but she felt more like my younger sister, yes we fought a lot but I'd still choose her ten times over before anyone else.

Not only was she naive, she had a heart disease. CAD: Coronary Artery Disease so we all treated her like an egg though I pushed her buttons a lot. When she was in high school she started dating this guy Awwal. She was fourteen in js3 and he was seventeen in ss2. They dated for over six years, she loved him so much and we were unaware but she had given herself to him—being naive and in love—we should have seen that coming.

We always thought they'd get married. I mean; he became part of the family. Even our dad knew him, got along with him and neighbors as well—we thought it was a done deal until one day we came across his wedding invitation on twitter.

When Asiya told me I flipped and confronted him, even punched him continuously and made him confess to my sister and promise her that his parents had forced him into it, made him beg her to forgive him and that he'll make it up to her. I hate to admit it but I can be a bit psychotic sometimes and coupled with what he did, I went raving mad.

He agreed and did like I told him to, what we didn't know was that the girl he was getting married to was a coursemate of his, who he apparently kept telling her was just a friend. We didn't know because she never told us so she knew it wasn't like he was forced but something he did intentionally.

She started going through depression. We did all we could to make her feel better but it wasn't working. Even went on a family vacation to let loose and suddenly we started seeing changes until one afternoon we found her in her room—she had a heart attack. Apparently, depression increases the risk of a heart attack in someone with CAD. I mean, depressions can make someone develop CAD so imagine if someone already has it.