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👁️Once More to See You👁️

A request from Expired_dirt
I hope it's to your liking!!

I love writing angst you guys! why's making them sad so silly ٩( ᐛ )و

First person PoV!

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I was lonely. My moons went to go and play with Neptune's moons. They've gotten closer. I wonder why. I wonder over a lot of things, mostly because nothing really gets told to me and Neptune. Is it because we're so far out? I bet so. I hate being this far out. I hate it. I hate not being near...

There I go again. Thinking about the past. All I can do is think about the past. Why would I not, things were so much better back then. When I could see him. When our orbits could be disregarded. When-

"Uranus? Are you alright?" Titania asks, concern strewn across her face. When did she get back? Are the rest of my moons nearby too? "You were muttering to yourself about something a bit unintelligible. That's why I took them to Triton and the others. We were concerned. I came back to talk to you. Is everything alright?"

"I- It's nothing, mate. I'm just thinking of the past. I'm sorry to worry you guys," I answered. Titania doesn't look satisfied with my answer though.

"Okay, but are you sure it's nothing?"

"...No. It's not nothing. But it feels like there's nothing I can do about it, mate."

"But there is something you can do. You can talk to me about whatever from the past is plaguing you."

I thought about taking up her offer, "Alright. I'll tell you, just don't tell anyone else, OK?"

"I swear on my core. If I accidentally tell someone, turn me into rings."

"What!"

"What?"

"...Alright then. There's this planet, we used to date each other in the past. It was easier for us to leave our orbits back then. We could just hide out and be with each other. No one could judge us or our relationship.

"But then, Sun got more strict about us staying in our orbits. It was harder to see each other. When we could meet up for once, we had to act like we never knew each other. We had to act like we were strangers when we were anything but. It was torture.

"Now, we can only watch each other from afar. I never even see him anymore unless it's at a Sun Competition. And while we're there, we can't interact either. I miss the love of my life, Titania. I miss my other half, and there's nothing I can do about it." I say, basically tearing up at the end. She looks at me with a sort of pity in her eyes.

"I- I'm so sorry." She says solemnly.

"Don't be, that's just the way the solar system works." Titania takes that last sentence as her cue to leave. A solar flare cuts through the depressing atmosphere and I can't stop myself from looking towards the inner solar system. I start to brush my hair with my fingers. Oh how I miss you, my dear Venus. How I wish I could hold you once again.

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The Sun is such a bitch sometimes. He keeps on whining about us staying in our orbits. Don't even get me started on how he shoots solar flares at us when we don't listen as well. And it wasn't all that bad too, we were just playing cards. Whatever, I guess.

Once I get back into my orbit, I catch myself looking past the asteroid belt. Looking at him. I always do whenever I'm not with Earth and the others. Oh how glad I am that no one catches me, they would just be bothering me for days.

No one really bothers me while I'm in orbit, so I let my mind wander. I wonder if he still likes chaste kisses on his adam's apple. Or if he still likes it when he can just completely cuddle me. Would he still like it if I ran my fingers through his hair? There are many things I wonder about him. It's hard not to, since we are so far away.

I missed when we could just be with each other in the asteroid belt. I miss when we would just be young and in love. I miss when I was worthy of him. I miss him. I miss my Uranus. How I wish I could just love you with no boundaries once again.

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other than the fact that one of my more estranged friends has a fat crush on me, I'm not feeling that yappy today.

I hope yall enjoyed it!