Tenant's Secret Love

Chapter 169: Born to be lonely

I put down the watering can in my hand, then sat on the small bench on the balcony. I took a cigarette out of my pocket and put it in my mouth without lighting it, then stared at the screen of my phone waiting for Renee to reply.

"Oh, then answer my question after you've finished watering the plants."

I pulled out my lighter and lit the cigarette clamped between my fingertips with a "pop". Then, squinting in the smoke, I scratched my head and finally replied: "I'm confused. Does her reliability have anything to do with you?"

"Of course it has nothing to do with me. I just don't want to see you lonely in Suzhou."

Renee's lofty answer made me scoff, so I immediately messaged her back, "Who is born not to be lonely? The one sun and the one moon are always with us, along with the sometimes cold, sometimes hot wind!"

"What about the flowers and plants? They are also with you!"

"No, the so-called flowers and plants are just a pretense to numb you, because they will wither one day, and in the end, you will still be alone and lonely!"

"So how can I not be lonely?"

"Loneliness is a human destiny."

Renee replied with a crying face emoji: "...I don't want to be lonely!"

"Ahaha...we were born to be lonely!"

"Lucas, stop saying that, think about how really lonely it is!"

"What's your loneliness compared to that? At least there are so many people who like and love you!"

"Is your loneliness really lonely?"

"I don't know, but I was once so lonely that I slept in a bridge hole, listening to the sound of the whistles of the ships coming and going, and I said goodnight to the big city alone under the stars and in the dark night!"

After sending this message, I took a heavy drag on my cigarette and thought back to the days when I was penniless in Shanghai, really living in a bridge hole and hugging the guitar that played the lonely tune, waiting for Brittany, who was trapped by her family.

So what is loneliness to me? It's just a code left behind after years of experience!

It was a long time before Renee replied to my message: "There will definitely be a woman who will always be with you, so that you will never be lonely again, and she herself will never be lonely either."

I stared at this message for a long time, and countless gorgeous images of being with this woman sprang to mind. So I wanted to ask Renee: 'Are you the woman who will always be with me?"

But in the end, she just replied, 'I'm sleepy, I'm going to sleep!"

Renee: "..."

After ending the WeChat conversation with Renee, I lay on the bed, lit a cigarette as usual, and pondered. I thought to myself that people are lonely, just like Brittany and I. After graduating, we went to great lengths to be together, thinking that we were no longer lonely. But in the end, we broke up, leaving loneliness behind, but unwilling to remember the days when we were not lonely together.

Alas! If we live so lonely, why do we have to stay in this world?

If you think about it, you'll understand. After all, there's only one sky city in the sky, so how can it hold all those lonely people?

I thought again about Renee. If I had her company, could we comfort each other's loneliness?

I think we could, as long as I think of her by my side, even if we don't say anything or do anything, my heart will be full, because her kindness and beauty have turned into warmth and driven away all that loneliness.