College Years (Sequel to Theres Always A Catch Austin Mahone FanFic)

Chapter 24

***Eli's POV***

I sat in the same spot I had been three days ago as I waited for results on my mother and Lucy. The same feelings as then, sad, depressed, anxious, numb and cold. The only difference, I had no hope of seeing their smiling faces anymore.

I was shoved out of the room by doctors trying to revive my mother with those shocking things but I knew there was no use. She was gone. I didnt want to talk to anyone so Austin had to talk to the doctors for me.

The look on their faces were sympathetic and sad and I knew what was happening. Michelle broke down in tears but I stayed contained. I am still in shock. I just stared at the piece of paper on the table in front of me.

My mothers suicide note that was only read by Michelle before she placed it in front of me. I knew that if I looked at it I would burst in to tears. I just couldn't right now.

Austin was consoling Michelle because I was fine at the moment. I just wanted to go home and sleep and get ready to move stuff in to our new home. Forget this all happened.

But I have to go back to that old house, where every memory lies. Lucy and moms pictures, the bedrooms, the hectic craziness that will be gone. I can't go back..

I just keep imagining what would be happening if mom were here. We would be watching those home movies we promised to watch before I left. Smiling and holding hands.

Before I left...

If I hadn't have left.. My mom would probably still be here. She would not have a choice because I would be in that room with her. I would have held her hand and wiped away her tears but she's gone. I cant do a thing about it.

"Mrs. Mahone?" I heard a person say and I lifted up my head to be greeted by a doctor smiling sympathetically at her. "I know this might be hard, but on regulation we have to have a family member identify a corpses body before taking any further action. Would you mind?"

I just nodded and followed him. I reached the room of my mother and hesitantly walked in. I saw her eyes closed and a gentle smile appearing on her face. She always did that when she was sleeping after she had a good day. Shed smile or talk in her sleep. She wasn't talking but she was smiling.. and I know.she died happy.

Happy to see Lucy and my father. Happy thar I was in good hands. Happy that she finally could let go of all the problems. Happy she could get out of this hospital. Happy.. shed want me to be happy. Right?

I just walked closer to my mother and her chest wasn't moving up and down as people sleeping do. Instead she laid there, limpless and cold. I grabbed her hand and shivered at the touch but I didn't let go. I just nodded my forehead at the doctor.

"I will leave you to say your goodbyes. " He turned on his heel and exited.

I stared at my mother and didnt break down.. I held her hand wishing, any second, her eyes would open and shed grip my hand and cameras would come flying out and everyone would yell that I had just been pranked. But in realty, I knew the truth. She would never wake up.. and this was goodbye.

"Hey mom," I started. I finally realized I was crying when a tear fell on our hands. "I know you can hear me and I wish I could just hear you one more time but.. you're gone and I don't really know why. You were taking her death so easily from what I saw. I guess I should've saw it before. I don't know what Ill do without my mother in these guidelines Ill need. My children wont have two grandmothers to give them love and I know we will.have kids because we were gonna try soon, mom. Im gonna be a parent. The best damn one ever too. Im so sorry I left. I left and you were here alone with your thoughts and I know you hate it when its only you and your thoughts but mom, listen. I love you with all of my heart. I am going to give every piece of advice you have given me and turn it in to advice for my children. I am going to go far with my dreams like I promised you and dad and I am going to be independent. I won't dwell on the past. Mommy, I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. And that will never change. Bye mom.."

And with that I gave her hand a squeeze and kissed her forehead and stumbled in to the waiting room. I almost fell until a pair of.arms caught me. Once I was in them I broke down in tears. The pair of arms just gently took me down to the floor with them and sat me in their lap.

I pressed my head in to the curve of the neck and sobbed in to this persons shoulder. With the familiar scent I knew it was Austin. He sat there and ran fingers thru my hair and rubbing my back.

"Shh. Baby girl, it's gonna be alright."

I lifted my head up from where I was positioned and looked him in.the eyes.

"Im going to love our kids beyond the highest point. I am going to be the best damn mother possible just as my mother had been for me. And I know you are going to be the father you always wished we both had. Austin.. everything will be alright. I know it. And Im grateful you are here. I couldn't imagine it.without you. I love you. And no matter what.. I will always love you. We will move in to that house and we will live the dream we have always wanted. I love you. and I am going to spend the rest of this rocky life with you. And wherever our life may take us.. We will stay Mr and Mrs. Mahone." I managed to grab his hand in mine during this whole thing and he wiped away my tears with his free hand.

"Eli, I love you." Was the only thing he said but I knew the emotion behind it. I kissed his lips gently for the first time in a long time. And I felt comforted and at ease.

"Im ready for the letter.." I said mine and his forehead still touching.

"Okay. Lets go over there."

I nodded and he picked me up bridal style. There were paparazzi surrounding us and taking pictures of this emotional moment. Austin didn't seem to care but I buried my face in his chest and wrapped my arms around his neck. This was going to be known to the world TONIGHT.

'Elizabeth Mahone has finally reached.. her breaking point. More about this story.. right after the break.'

Im not going to let these reporters and idiotic people get the best of me. I just can't. Not at this point in time. Not after what i had just promised my mom. Im keeping my chin up and smiling even though Im dying because thats what we do.

During this time Austin set me down on the waiting room chair and was opening the note. I took a deep breathe and closed my eyes readying myself for what was to come.

"You sure you wanna do this? Cause you don't have to. We can save it for another day if you want,babe.'' Austins eyes were sympathetic.

"I've put it off long enough. She heard my goodbyes and I have to hear hers. I know it will hurt but I have to read it sometime and I can't wait. I want to leave and be happy knowing my mom and Lucy died happy and that they'd want me to carry on. I have to do this."

He hesitantly handed me the sheet of paper and I carefully read.

'Hello sweetheart. As you probably know, Im not happy. I wasn't happy the moment I found out Lucy was Dying. Since you've had Austin I knew you would be in good hands with him, Michelle, and Dave by your side. I will never forgive myself for leaving you ever, but you do have to realize this is just what's best. I can be with Lucy and your father as a family and we can watch you raise your family and watch over your family. Please do not cry for me. Or for Lucy. Right now, were all probably watching you read this note. And I know you're holding back tears and trying to look strong because that's what I did. That's what I taught you. But letting out is good. I know one day you'll be a parent and you'll teach them to.stay strong. But remember to tell them the part I didnt tell you. Stay strong in situations where strength is needed. Its okay to be weak.when youre hurt and down. Because when your down the only thing that matters is getting back up again. And as a parent you can not prevent them from falling, You can only help them back up when they fall. Baby girl, I love you and I know you will one day smile aagain and raise a beautiful family with your husband and I know Michelle will help you with parenting every step of the way. And Im sorry I could not be there, but as i said, this is best. I love you with all my heart. Stay Strong. Just remember when your feeling down and ugly just remember you are beautiful and strong. Like your mother. Goodbye baby girl. I love you. Just remember.. I died .. happy.'

She signed it off with a heart and that was my closure.

My mom died happy. To be with Lucy. And to be with my father. Im going to be a mom. And Im going to love them unconditionally.

But most importantly Im going to

Stay Strong.