"WHAT ABOUT ME?" || Karma Akabane x Female Reader •Fan Fiction•

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That evening was the last day of our special summer camp and everyone was making the full out of it. Koro sensei initiated us to have a test of courage.
"Walk through the exit in a boy-girl pair." That was the task, he said. The ocean cavern in front of us sure looked dark but not scary. But with Koro sensei playing the ghost there was definitely going to be more to it.
I quietly watched Okuda and Karma pairing up with each other. A small smile curled up my face, seeing the pair go inside.
'They'll look good clinging to each other when they're scared in there but that's least likely to happen.'
I felt myself going tense somewhat, and a hint of insecurity building up inside of me.
'I don't feel good... seeing Karma with Okuda.' That smile faded away eventually. I rubbed the back of my neck and looked at the sand with some unpleasant feeling inside of me.
"Y/N san," Okajima approached me with a grin and some redness on his face. "Please pair up with me, you can hide behind me if you feel afraid inside there." He flexed his non-existent. biceps.
"Actually, I'm going back to the hotel." I turned myself away from him. Even from my blind spot I could see him falling to his knees with disappointment.
"Why does every girl turn me down?" He murmured to himself.
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I sighed and leaned against one of the pillars in that hotel porch.
"Ritsu?" The pink haired girl popped up on my phone screen before a moment of me calling her.
"Why, Y/N, are you not interested in the courage test?"
"Not really. Also, I don't have anyone to pair up with." I rubbed the back of my head, looking away from her. "It only made me sick seeing that sight."
I exhaled loudly. "Don't tell anyone this, 'k?"
"That you feel sick?"
"No, it's just that I like Karma. Akabane Karma." I felt my face getting warmer as I accepted that. I clutched at my forearm in a mixed feeling of fluster and helplessness. I felt flustered with the realisation, how I was going to face him again and helpless because I had always found him annoying but now.
"I'm glad you finally realised your feelings. Is the information good to be shared to any of our friends."
"It should not be shared! Okuda likes him already and if I tell her about it then she might not feel very good about it. I would have told him but... My other friend, Gakushu, he's giving me the cold shoulder and so it's you whom I am sharing my feelings with. It's a secret."
I pretended to be zipping my lips.
"Got it!" She rogered along.
"Y/N?" Okuda's voice startles me and I push my phone back inside my pocket.
"Uh- yeah? Did that courage test get over already?"
"It did but why did you leave early?"
"Nothing, nothing." I waved my hands. "I was just feeling low for no reason. How did your time go with Karma?"
'Why did I include him in my question!?'
She smiles softly, "It wasn't really scary. Sensei ended up getting scared instead. Now come along, everyone is over there."
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"I'm sorry." Gakushu bowed in front of me. "I was not thinking straight at that time. I thought it was right to push you away because my father pointed you out to be a distraction. Since I was already upset with things, it added fuel to the fire. I should have given it a thought before taking myself out on you."
"And you only realised now that ghosting me was wrong?" I cross my legs over each other and fold my arms.
We never avoided each other for more than two days but it had been 5 weeks now and maybe because I stopped trying to reach out to him a week later, he felt ashamed enough to apologise for his own fault. He had never been one to accept defeat easily and of course hardly felt sorry for his doings. But right now, with him having to go through the trouble of coming all the way to my place and bowing in front of me, I could not help feeling...
"Y/N, I'm really sorry. You are the person I'm closest to after myself. I regret what I said and did. I can be a real jerk sometimes but I was definitely wrong to straight away avoid you because of that manipulative man."
...I seriously mattered to him a lot.
"Not like I can refrain myself from talking to you." I get up from my chair and poke his head with a soft smile.
"I forgive you. Get up now... It feels bad seeing you like this."