𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐆𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 | 𝐁𝐋

𝟎𝟐𝟒

a/n; do vote and comment as it will motivate me! slightly longer chapter today

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After the stunt that Silas pulled off, he was forbidden to step out of his room.

Simply speaking, the crown prince had been grounded. The Emperor had caught wind of the incident, and to people's surprise, he had taken action and had forced Silas to stay inside his room and not venture outside.

There was strange tension between you and Silas. He clung onto you madly, but refused to utter a single world to you. It tugged on your heartstrings when you saw how desperate he was to bask in your presence, and yet you saw how Silas didn't impart a single word to you, for he now deemed you as a traitor.

Your feelings of anger had slowly simmered. Would it have been better to clear up the misunderstanding? Then again, Silas had been the one to jump so recklessly into conclusions, so really, it had been both of your faults. You had once prided yourself on always communicating well with Silas — on always ensuring that you two would maintain a healthy relationship — but now, the tables had turned.

Silas was giving you the silent treatment. At least, you assumed he was. At times the prince opened his mouth to say something, but then pain would flicker over his features, and he would swallow down his words. Meanwhile, you continued to speak to him in hushed tones, trying to assure him that you...

Weren't leaving.

You wouldn't leave until he healed, at least.

But now you were heavily conflicted: which path was better for you? Could you trust Silas to not go ballistic the minute you left? Could you trust Silas to not go crazy if you stayed? Perhaps your father had been right all along. Perhaps this mess wouldn't have happened if you had placed a distance between you and Silas.

But oh, you were so greedy. Without Silas, you felt like your insides had been scooped out and you were left to hang on aimlessly on the clothesline. Without Silas, you felt empty — you had left every piece of yourself in him, you had entrusted him your heart — and now you didn't know what to do if you left him.

How pathetic, wasn't it? You had selfishly made Silas your constant, and so had Silas. You could not function without him, and he could not live without you. You had attached yourself to him too much, too long — too fast — and now your souls were intermingled with each other, for better or for worse.

You wondered if it was the latter.

Before you met Silas, you remembered feeling annoyed that no one could understand you. Your mother had been extremely close to you then, but you realized that she didn't understand your desire to be loved. You had seen all your cousins around laughing and chatting with their fathers, but when you looked at your father, who would be there with an expressionless face.