𝐑𝐞𝐝𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐲 | 𝐉.𝐘𝐇 𝐱 𝐒.𝐌𝐆

➣ 17

Mingi felt so anxious today.

He just didn't feel well, almost feeling as if he was about to faint and not even being able to take a sip of water due to how his hands were shaking. He just couldn't calm down, feeling as if he was about to start crying every moment now.

His mind was a mess because of everything. The memories of his past life and Chanwoo were too much to suddenly remember, no matter how often he actually thinks of it. He thinks about his parents, his family, his hometown at least 3 times a week, probably even more at that.

He misses the time when he was happy, where he didn't have problems he has now and where his friends didn't leave him because of Chanwoo's lies. Everyone believed him, and no one believed Mingi, not even his own family.

It was the worst betrayal ever. Mingi still vividly remembers the feeling of being so alone when his parents threw him out of their house with only the bare minimum and not even giving him a chance to explain.

He was just so scared, all alone and not having a single soul by his side. From then, Mingi moved to Seoul and lived in that old building where he worked and studied just so he could live at least a little bit and have something to eat.

He knew how bad it was, but he really couldn't afford anything else. If Yunho didn't come to him that night and asked if he wanted a ride, Mingi doesn't know if he would ever feel the soft bed and the warm food to eat.

Mingi was more than grateful for Yunho, not only because he took him and allowed him to live with him, but for every single thing that he has done for him in this month and a half that Mingi has been living with him.

He felt so safe here unlike that stupid old building that Mingi found scary anyway, it was supposed to be crashed down and turned into something new, so anyway he would need to find another place to stay at anyway.

But now, Mingi didn't even bother about it. He really couldn't bother about it now, at least not when he is feeling like this. His head was pounding, making him feel as dizzy as ever and not even being able to make it stop spinning from the moment he woke up.

He felt as if he was about to throw up every single moment now and his head was spinning, not being able to calm his shaking hands and racing heart now. He just couldn't calm himself down, feeling tears picking at his eyes as he rubbed them with the pads of his fingers.

He couldn't believe he was going through all of this again, now silently sobbing as he curled up onto the bed and pulled the blanket over himself so he was completely hidden.

There Mingi cried and cried silently for what seemed like hours, not leaving the bed for a second and feeling like a huge embarrassment.

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When Mingi slowly opened his eyes, he felt a hand running through his hair. His head was pounding again and he felt groggy, now realizing that it was dark outside and that he missed all of his classes today.

But honestly, it didn't matter at all. Mingi didn't care about it, and he knew it won't affect his grades much anyway. He will just take notes from someone and call it a day, not really caring about it now.

He blinked, realizing that he was now lying on the bed with his upper body uncovered and head placed onto someone's lap. He blinked, trying to regain his strength and smelling the now familiar and comforting smell.

Yunho was home, running his fingers through Mingi's hair and keeping his head on his lap.

Mingi gulped, now turning slightly around and catching Yunho's attention. He soon got up and sniffled, rubbing his eye tiredly as Yunho stared at him. He stared and looked concerned, feeling as if he was about to get scolded.

But instead Mingi was met with those pitiful eyes that were full of concern and not even saying a thing, but the look on Yunho's face spoke so many things.

"Hey.." Yunho mumbled.

Mingi shifted in his place a bit and looked down, mumbling back a small 'hi' back and not even looking up to Yunho. He didn't have the energy to do so, feeling both embarrassed and also feeling as if Yunho will scold him.

"Are you okay?..." Yunho mumbled again.

Mingi nodded. "Yeah..."

Yunho didn't seem convinced with that. He didn't even look like he was trying to believe it, instead just staring at Mingi with that same look and not trying to say anything to him and just wanting to know what was up.

He felt worried, seeing him like that. Yunho hates that he is quiet.

"Mingi, why are you lying to me? You were shaking when I came home." Yunho mumbled again.

Mingi sniffled, fiddling with his fingers. He gulped, feeling as if he was about to break down again. He didn't want to be here, he wanted to leave, leave his stupid mind and not even wanting to look back for a second.

He wanted to leave this stupid life and not think about anything. He wanted peace.

"I-I..."

"Mingi, what is going on for God's sake? I can see that something is very wrong with you. Why don't you tell me what is going on? You know that you can trust me, I promise I will not hurt you. I want to be here for you, and I want to know what is wrong with you. I care for you, Mingi. I want to be here no matter what, I just want you to tell me." Yunho spoke up now, still staying quiet and calm.

Mingi gulped. He felt scared, confused even. He didn't know if he was ready to talk to Yunho about this. He isn't sure how will he even react or how will he take it, but Mingi knows that Yunho isn't a bad person.

Of course Yunho wasn't a bad person, but Mingi is.

He is just so tired because of all of this, feeling like a complete asshole. He knew he was a bad person because he was just using Yunho. He was using him, there is nothing else to explain what Mingi was doing now, and he felt bad.

He bit his lower lip. "I just- I don't.."

Tears were picking at his eyes and now, Mingi just gave up. He let them fall, not looking up to Yunho as his face was now in complete shock, staring at him as Mingi just let them fall down his cheeks and wipe his nose onto the back of his hand.

He felt scared, even more confused and just giving up. He felt weak, alone even if Yunho was right next to him.

And Mingi knew that he wasn't alone when Yunho wrapped his arms around Mingi's torso and turned him around, pulling him into his body so his face was in Yunho's neck and that Mingi now cried harder as his face was buried into Yunho's neck.

"Shhh, it's going to be okay..." Yunho mumbled, closing his eyes as he rubbed Mingi's back.

He sniffled, gripping Yunho's shirt with his hands and crying even harder in his skin, getting both it and also the shirt wet. He sniffled and sniffled, feeling Yunho rubbing his back and now even pressing a light kiss onto his temple as he held him close.

"Okay, you don't need to tell me now. I just want you to know that I will be here for you, okay? It's going to be okay, I know that. You're so strong, Mingi..." Yunho mumbled.

Mingi sniffled. All he could do is just hope and nothing else.