Snowridge's Secret (Book 1)

65 - Enough (M)

Alexi - POV

There are moments in each person's life when things reach a critical point. When the right circumstances and the wrong people come together and cause the perfect storm. When your exhaustion and ability to give a fuck loses its meaning.

When you've just had enough.

That's where I found myself as I walked quietly towards the stage. My tired eyes cast forward and my so called pack mates whispered and gossiped around me. The soft sound of my footsteps centering everyone's attention as I reach the marble stage.

Their eyes bore into my back as I walk up those stairs and join my father on the stage. The room fell silent as I raised my head. My expression filled with regret as I stared at my brother and his mate. Their faces filled with concern. Causing my fists to clench and my nails to dig into my palms.

So, I speak. Deciding again that this is enough.

"I'm sorry." My apologetic words barely a whisper as I look between them. Watching regretfully as Their faces go from concern to confusion, I don't give them a chance to speak. "This was supposed to be your day. Just about you. Celebrating just you."

My voice broke as I finished my statement. A sense of discomfort building as my inhibitions fall away and I let go of all of my restraints. Letting all the chains fall away. Allowing Xander's bond with every wolf in this room to fill my soul. Opening my senses as the gasps fill the room.

Closing my eyes as I the fear, hate, indifference, judgment, and love flow into me. Accepting all of it as I turn and look out into the vast see of wolves.

My eyes opened as I truly looked at them for the first time. Seeing each of them in a different light. Understanding for the first time how I'm truly seen.

Stepping forward and taking a deep breath. I looked over them one last time as I cast it all aside. My hopes and fears. My never-ending need to quietly fit in. My distorted vision of a happy, harmonious pack. A pack that fully accepts me. I let that illusion fade quietly away as I faced the reality of it all.

Taking a deep breath before I speak the words that will lead down an unknown path.

"Ever since I got my wolf, whispers and rumors about me have spread like wildfire." I start. "Words like monster and dangerous followed me everywhere. So, I decided to hide who I was. I told myself if I just dedicate myself to the pack. Spent every waking moment trying to be the perfect son of the alpha. Be obedient and loyal to my father and brother. That you would all accept me. That once I found my mate. Once I could finally reveal my wolf that all my hard work would finally allow you all to see that i was just like you."

My words echo through the room as I try to keep my voice steady and my words firm. My eyes were wondering until they reached the table that caused all of this trouble. Connecting with the standing boy and his smirking brother.

"But I realized that wasn't going to happen. I realized that there were those who decided that I was a monster, no matter what. That I didn't belong here no matter what I did ot how loyal I was." I spit out. My eyes began to glow as I stared them down. "Instead of seeing me as a fellow pack member who can protect our pack. They will never see me as anything but a monster." I finish before turning my attention back to the crowd.

"I can feel the fear and trepidation from many of you. But I can also feel the kindness and love from many others. And I understand all of those feelings very well." I inform them, pressing my emotions through the pack link for the first time. Allowing my raw emotions. My pain, my love, and my hurt to be known by all. Watching as many of their eyes flash as some glare and some look away.