It's all about Her

Maybe Not Meant to Be...

With time , I grew more attached to you, perhaps too much.

Our gem noticed this and grew concerned.

One day, he pulled me aside, a worried expression on his face.

He gently warned me about my feelings for you.

He said I was losing focus on my studies, caught up in the moments I kept sharing with him about you and me.

His words hit me hard, and though it wasn't easy, I knew he was right.

I needed to distance myself, even if it felt like tearing my heart apart.

So, we switched seats. He took my place beside you, and I sat in his.

It seemed like the right thing to do, an attempt to protect myself from falling even deeper into emotions that were beginning to consume me.

I thought maybe, just maybe, it would help me focus again.

And so, the preparation for CA continued.

But then came the 7th of August-the day before my birthday, a day I'll never forget.

I remember every detail, though you might not even recall it.

That was the day when a conversation between you and our gem changed everything.

I later learned from him what you had said: that you saw me only as a friend, nothing more.

You asked him not to tell me, but he couldn't hold it in for long.

After almost a day of struggling, he finally told me the truth.

I won't lie, it hurt.

It hurt more than I can put into words.

But deep down, I knew this was the answer I would receive.

I had always sensed that no matter how many moments we shared, they meant something different to you than they did to me.

That day, I made a sacrifice I never thought I would.

I had always promised myself one thing-that I would never settle for being "just a friend" when my heart wanted all of you.

But on that day, I broke my own rule.

I told myself that having you in my life, even as a friend, was better than not having you at all.

And so, I agreed to be your friend.

You may never understand how hard it was for me, the boy who was never okay with sharing you with anyone, now choosing to stand beside you as only a friend.

That decision-one made out of love-brought more suffering than I could have imagined.

But I couldn't see it then.

At the time, it felt like the only way to keep you in my life, even if it meant burying my true feelings.

And strangely, I considered it the best birthday gift I could have given myself.

Accepting your answer, letting go of my pride, and sacrificing my standard.

It was on that day I realized that no matter how much effort you pour into something,

"some things are just not meant for you."

And sometimes, the hardest battles are the ones you fight silently, within yourself.

And so, I embraced the pain, smiled through it, and accepted my place in your life, as your friend.

And that's why i thought maybe we are not meant to be...