It's all about Her

Closer Than Before...

The days of silence between us were some of the hardest I've ever experienced.

I don't even know why I want you so desperately, I just do.

I don't need anything extraordinary.

All I've ever longed for is a simple life with you.

A life where I could care for you, admire you endlessly, and tell you,

"You belong to me."

A life where "you and I" could finally be called "us."

But deep down, I know that might never be possible in this life.

There was a moment during that silence when I genuinely thought it was over between us.

I believed you didn't care whether I talked to you or not.

The thought crushed me.

Every day, seeing you but not being able to talk to you, it hurt more than I could ever put into words.

In my confusion and despair, I stumbled upon an astrology app while scrolling through social media.

Desperation makes a man do foolish things, and love had made me a fool.

I downloaded the app, hoping to find some kind of answer to ease my pain.

I used the free chat feature, but the response I got didn't help.

So, without hesitation, I added more coins from my wallet, hoping a different astrologer could provide clarity.

But in the end, every response was the same.

They all told me to focus on my career, that the future was uncertain, and I should live in the present.

I wanted to believe their words, but it felt impossible to just let go of you.

So, I deleted the app, realizing how ridiculous it was to seek answers from strangers about something my heart already knew.

That was how desperate I had become, searching for meaning in places that could never truly understand the depth of my feelings for you.

Then came a day that changed everything-a day I'll never forget. June 16, 2023.

It was our gem's birthday, the day we found our way back to each other without even saying a word.

I remember you walking in with a cake, accompanied by that girl who's like family to him.

Seeing you that day stirred something inside me.

It was on that day we started talking again.

Neither of us apologized, but somehow, we both felt the apology in the silence between us.

And the truth is, I never needed you to say sorry.

You are perfect in your own way, even with your pride.

And you never asked for an apology from me either.

That's the beauty of what we share, our bond doesn't need words to mend what was broken.

I know I have flaws. Too many, if I'm being honest.

But if there's anything about me that bothers you, I wish you would tell me.

I want to change, not for anyone else, but for you.

The next time we face a conflict like this, I don't want our egos to get in the way.

I want to be better for you, for us.

Soon after, exams arrived again, starting on June 24, 2023.

This time, though, things felt different.

I had both my luck-that is, you-and the hard work I'd put in.

For the first time in a long while, I felt confident that I'd make it through.

And just like that, with the arrival of exams, everything in my life began to find its way back on track.

Our bond may have been tested, and the silence between us may have felt unbearable, but somehow, we made it through.

That brief period of uncertainty only made me realize how deeply I want you in my life, no matter how flawed, no matter how stubborn.

Because when it comes to you, I'll always be ready to try again.

And that's how we became closer than before...