This Life Will Be My Last

Chapter 11 - Dreams and Nightmares {Part 1}

My dreams? My nightmares?

They were always plagued with the deaths of the other lives I've lived.

Was that the price I paid for the reincarnation as well as my Infertility?

You wouldn't think that Myself and The Crown Prince were passionate about loving each other in the original life that i had lived right?
The nobles said they were as cute as a pair of young lovebirds. Sweet really?

"Ellie..." a whisper called out to me, I recognised The Voice as Leonardo's. The nickname he gave me in private and public, the sane vows held on our wedding day belonged to that..

He promised that he'd love me in the other universe? Any other lives we would be together?

"Elisabeth! Happy birthday my princess!" Leonardo said happily as he greeted me, kissing me lightly on the cheek as he slightly pushed the left side of my hair out of my face, so he could look and admire me better.

"Oh leo! Leo! You didn't have to do so much ss to give me presents on my birthday" I said joyfully as I looked at him, before he then handed a bouquet of my favourite flowers that were tied with a ribbon the same colour as my eyes - with an emerald stone in a gold frame embedded in the middle of the ribbon.

My mind was in turmoil. Why did the Countess have to get involved with him? We Were happy in my first life for 2 years as The Crown Prince and Princess of Rodwine.

Why couldn't it be like this in all my other lives I've lived On this earth?

"The Countess... The Countess of Jina - Rosette Toussaint" I muttered to myself in the dream as it looked like I just watched it from afar. Not being a part of the dream as I just observed like some spirit or how God would naturally observe and Look after the earth.

"The most painful part was remembering the numerous mistakes he made, the mistakes that could have been righted." I shouted In the dream as I looked at Leonardo, who in turn only seemed to be focused on the women in front of him?

Myself in my 1st life

It should have been like this for all of my other lives, he shouldn't have gotten involved with that woman just because he found out I was Infertile? It doesn't make sense..

Even if I was Infertile? Who isn't to say that it was because he never consummated his marriages with me in all my lives, despite the original where we were seen as passionate lovers from a romance novel, where death would not even separate the bond we held for each other.

I now regretted it

How could I have been so blind As to love him?

Looking back? I'm not making The same mistake as I made in my first life -

"!"

My 40th life?

That was filled with such Joy and ended in the Imperial Palace burning down in flames as they engulfed the southern wing of the palace and the central hall.

A revolution against the crown, the same family who had signed a contract and agreed to have me in this position, now dead, the palace walls stained with various crimson blood from different servants, maids and members of the Imperial Palace.

Standing on the balcony, I observed the area as the orange flames of the fire on their torches kept growing And growing. The peasants? What was this - They were Revolting against the crown.

"Hah" I muttered to myself as I glanced at the scenes below me, the smoke filling the atmosphere as I struggled to see the engravings on the pillars in The Imperial Palace.