THE BOY IS MINE

Part 39: HONESTY.

••THE FOLLOWING MORNING ••

With so much embarrassment and a little hang over Jordan and Lowell sit side to side on the bed covered in total silence as they reflect on the events of the previous night.

Lowell: Oh my God..

It goes silent again and their eyes trail around the room recalling each and every detail of the previous night so clearly and vividly.

Lowell: Did we really-...
Jordan: Look at me and ask me that Lowell.

Lowell shakes his head and remains facing somewhere else still covering himself. He has hickeys all over his neck but of course he is not aware of such yet and so does Jordan.

Jordan: Be honest with me Lowell, are you ashamed about las night, do you regret it?
Lowell: No I'm not and I don't regret anything..
Jordan: Then why can't you look at me in the eyes right now, just look at me!
Lowell: I can't!
Jordan: Why?
Lowell: Because-... Because I'm-...

He huffs covering his face and Jordan sighs nodding.

Jordan: You are embarrassed, is that it?
Lowell just huffs hugging himself and doesn't even bother to answer him.
Jordan: Very well then I will leave you alone Lowell.. but I will be honest with you about the fact that I enjoyed each and every moment that we had last night, not only the great sex that we had together but the kisses too, holding you and falling asleep on each other's arms like we did last night I enjoyed each and every part of that best friend or not I don't fucking care and that's my truth.

*Silence*

Jordan: But I have to admit that I didn't expect it to be one sided though...for a moment there I thought that what we had was mutual but I guess not... And that's fine too so I won't hate you for it.
Jordan: I guess we are better off as best friends after all.

Lowell still covers himself.

*No dammit that's not it... I loved every part of last night as well and I enjoyed you so so much. But how will I look at you now?, How will I face you after such a great night? Will I continue to see you as a friend or are you suddenly a lover to me now because seemingly a part of me is slowly falling in love with you and it is unavoidable. I won't be able to hide it from you so how can I face you without giving myself away to you, what if you freak out and leave me?.....no I can't let that happen I don't want to lose you..*

Jordan sighs walking to unlock the door butt naked and then he wears his bathrobe also taking his toiletry bag as he leaves for a shower.
Lowell sighs uncovering himself and rests by his back thinking about Jordan and just the way that he touched him last night, the way kissed him, his caresses, those sweet assuring words he whispered in his ears last night...damn all of that just made him feel some type of way for him.
Lowell blushes covering face and scoffs like a little kid.
He is totally smitten and that is for sure.

••

Everyone gathers around the table for breakfast not showing any signs of hangover except for the teachers.
They can't suspect the students for anything because the students are fresh as hell and ready for the day.

Anastasia pecks Jordan's cheek as she walks past and he blows a kiss at her as she walks away and then he turns to face Lowell who is seated across him.
Lowell quickly looks away to focus on his food.

*Message alert*

*IcyHot: Good morning my baby.*
*IcyHot: Just because Lowell is a coward to face me doesn't mean that I should lose my Blue as well.*

Lowell covers his blushing face with his glass of juice and then focuses back on his phone.

*Blue Iris: You will never lose me but I really wish that you would be patient with Lowell though, that was his first time sleeping with a man, his best friend at that. So he has so many thoughts going on his head at the moment and he would like to think things through that's all.*
*IcyHot: Please don't shut me out, it was my first time as well and we can talk about our experience together and see where we went wrong, perhaps I could have the answers to your thoughts. Just don't shut me out.*
*Blue Iris: Let's continue on what we agreed on IcyHot, being lovers here on the app and be friends in reality please let's not mess things up for us.*

Jordan huffs and looks up Lowell for a moment and then nods.

*IcyHot: Fine then but can I at least be able to hold your hands when I want to? To caress your supple face when I stare into those blue eyes of yours?*
*Blue Iris: Did you do that when we were friends?*
*IcyHot: No not really but we can make an exception right?...*
*Blue Iris: No no buts Icy... We're back to being best friends now not lovers.*
*IcyHot: Arg fine, you are so boring.*
*Blue Iris: Fuck you and bye slum I need to eat.*
*IcyHot: I love you Baby.*
*Blue Iris: I love you so much my love.*

He warmly smiles up at him and Jordan returns it as they continue to eat their breakfast with sparks flying.

Justin nudges Scott and Scott nudges him back.
Justin: You still don't want to believe it?
Scott: Let me eat in peace.
Justin: Fine then, eat you uncaring moron!
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