dirty little secrets

the life she had

Scarletts pov:
As I kick my feet around in the cold water, my feet dirty from the ground underneath a feeling that I've never felt before rushes over me. I feel so different out here.

I feel so... free.

When I was back at that place, I felt like I would never get away from him, I felt like I would spend my whole life in that place. I don't want to go back, I never do, but now I'm out here, I'm going to be on my own.

I'm not sure what I'll do on my own.

All of a sudden, I get distracted from the fun feeling inside of me when I hear chloe's voice in the distance. "Scarlett!?"

She then continues to shout, repeating my name as she does, "Scarlett!?"

"Where are you!?"

The sound of ger voice echoes through the trees as she sounds quite worried. "Scarlett!?" I hear once more.

I decide to shout back just to let her know that I'm okay, "chloe!"

I start to make my way back to the cabin, trying to retrace the steps that I took to get here. I start to hear different sounds as I make my way back, the sounds of cracking and crunching below my bear feet.

The sound of whistling makes me jump slightly, and I feel like someone's watching me.

I start to hear the sound of whispering voices in the distance, although this time I can't make it out. Or am I just imagining it.

When the cabin is eventually back in my sight, I see chloe looking around outside, so I decide to grab her attention, "chloe, hey!"

"Scarlett!" A smile instantly grows on her face.

"Where have you been? I was worried!" She exclaims.

I hang my head slightly, chuckling, "Sorry.."

She laughs a little, "Don't be. Come on, let's get you back inside. I brought you some things." She says, holding up the bag in her hand.

I follow after her as she pushes open the door and walks inside. "Still no baby then?" She chuckles whilst rolling her eyes.

"Nope.."

"Hey, listen, why don't you get a nice shower? I'll make you something to eat." She suggests.

I hesitate slightly. "Sh- shower..?"

"Alone..?"

She furrows her brows, looking confused, "Yes, alone, Scarlett, what's wrong?"

"But I thought I wasn't supposed to shower alone...?" I ask.

There's a moment of silence before she stops what she's doing and heads towards me, "Oh you poor thing, did he shower with you...?" She asks me.

I shake my head. "No, but he would help me to wash and stay with me whilst I did." I mutter.

She sighs deeply. "Oh Scarlett, honey, he was very wrong for that. You're supposed to have privacy whilst you shower..." she tells me.

"Privacy..?" I question her.

"Never mind, okay? I'll help you get set up, and I'll be right out here if you need me, okay?" She smiles.

I nod, feeling quite anxious. I follow her to the bathroom and watch as she starts to run the shower. "Here's a towel." She says, handing me a towel over.

"Okay, this is for your body, and this is for your hair. If you need anything else, I'll be just through there, okay?"

I've never done this by myself before, so I'm a little nervous, but as chloe shuts over the door after leaving the room, I begin to undress.

My hair sways behind me as I step into the shower and let the water run over my body.

I can do this.

I want to do this...

I want the life that she had...