dirty little secrets

always learning

Scarletts pov:
Having a baby to look after is so hard! I expected a few challenges, but not like this. Chloe has taught me everything, I'm lucky to have her here. Everything has been going well up until now. The baby won't stop crying, and I dont know what's wrong!

I've tried everything!

Everything that chloe has taught me I've tried, and nothing seems to be working. I'm not sure what to do.

If I can't even get her to stop crying, how am I ever supposed to take care of her alone?

"Ugh! I can't do this!" I exclaim, pacing the room.

"What's wrong with you!?" I shout, making her cry louder.

"Ugh!" I become angry at myself.

I take the baby through to chloe to try to get her advice, "Hey, how's it going?" She seems cheerful as I enter the room with a crying baby in my arms.

"Terrible!"

"I can't do this!" I say.

She chuckles, turning around, "What's going on?" She asks me.

"I can't get her to stop crying." I let her know.

"I've tried everything you showed me!"

She raises her eyes brows but almost instantly she says this, "Could she be hungry?"

I throw chloe a confused look, "Hungry... but what am I supposed to feed her?"

"Milk." She replies.

"M-milk?" I question her.

"But how...?"

"Well, there's two options, there's formula milk which you can make, brut we don't have anything to make it right now, so the other option is to breastfeed." She tells me.

"Huh..?"

She giggles, "Let me grab you something."

She goes away and quickly comes back with a thin blanket. "Take this."

Now, put it over your  shoulder like this." She shows me how to do it.

Okay, now lift your shirt a little. And the baby will feed from your breast milk.

"Hold her here." She continues showing me how to do it.

"See? Notice how she's stopped crying?"

"I don't like this..." I tell her. " I feel strange.."

"You're bound to feel like that the first time." She giggles. "It's a natural thing, scarlett. A lot of mothers do it."

I don't like this right now, but I know that I'm new to this and that I'm still learning so mabye I could get used to it.

"What now?" I ask.

"Nothing. You just wait until she's finished." She smiles.

Chloe has been so helpful. She didn't have to help me, but she did. She's been so kind to me.

After the baby, if finished feeding, I pull back down my shirt and give the blanket back to chloe.

"Thank you..." I tell her.

"It's okay.. we all need help sometimes." She says as she wraps her arms around me.

"You're doing a great job, scarlett." She tells me.

"You're going to be a great mom to her..."