NELLY

Fake Ass Porsha: Chapter 10

"Can we go to the park now Porsha?" DJ asked with excitement for the 100th time.

"Yes just give me a minute baby" I answered, shaking like crazy. I was attempting to put my make-up on, but my nerves just wouldn't allow me to do so. I was suppose to be meeting Nelly at the park for a kids fun day. She had Jake's children for the weekend. I applaud her. To say she didn't have kids of her own, she sure treated Jake's children as if she had birthed them herself. She was really the only mother figure they knew. And here I was, still in training with little DJ. That child was a hand full, but so loving. I had grown attached to him.

"Porsha, hurry hurry hurry!!" yelled DJ as I finished up my make-up. I grabbed my keys and we headed for the park. The entire drive there, I thought about turning around. Nelly was a support system to me. Money, prison, and Shawna had encouraged me to betray my best friend.

"Hey chick!" yelled Nelly. My stomach dropped just from looking at her. "Hey DJ!"

"So you got the kids today huh?" I asked, looking at Diamond and JJ.

"Yeh girl, no matter what happens between me and Jake these will always be my babies. Me and you can sit over on this bench and let them play." Nelly insisted as we walked towards the bench to sit down. "So how is motherhood?"

"Great DJ is a great kid. Very smart and loves his daddy girl."

"Porsha can I ask you a question?"

"Yes" I answered, my nerves starting to race again.

"Do you love your new life. Your new kid? Your new man? Your life so far?"

" I love DJ and Damien has been doing everything a man should, but I'm learning to love him. With all I've been through, I can honestly say he genuinely loves me. With time I'll feel the same. Sometimes you gotta learn to love who loves you."

"Ain't that the truth" laughed Nelly. Our conversation was interrupted by the cry of Diamond. DJ threw a rock, hitting her in the eye.

"No rock throwing DJ" I yelled to him from the bench. "Play nice ok." They continued to play as if nothing happened.

"Where's Jake?"

"Girl who knows. I picked them up from his mom. He probably wants to kill me after what happen with my new old friend Corey."

"Corey?"

"Shawna's brother. We were conversating for about a week until last night." I started shaking again. I hadn't felt so nervous before in my life. Diamond started crying again. DJ had pushed her off the swing. I was already nervous and irritated. I hopped up, running over to DJ, grabbed him by his shirt and brought him close to my face.

"Didn't I tell you to stop playing so damn ruff?!" I yelled at him. He gave me a look as if he were two seconds from peeing his pants.

" Porsha that's enough!" yelled Nelly, running over to me and loosening my grip. Everything grew quiet. I snapped back to reality. I broke down. I couldn't believe I had handled him that way. Just that fast, I had turned into the person who I hated the most. I had turned into my mom.

" Baby I am so sorry" I cried. "I will never do that to you again. I am sorry." I repeated multiple times, hugging him and kissing his forehead.

"I think we should go now" said Nelly, wrapping her arm around my shoulders as we all walked to the car. We took the kids for ice cream and headed home. I felt so guilty. I never thought that was a side of my personality. I never thought I had the ability to treat or talk to a child the way I did DJ. Walking in the house, I headed to the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water, breaking down again. DJ heard me crying and ran into the kitchen.

" Porsha it's okay. I not mad at you Porsha" he said in a soft, gentle voice hugging my leg. I cried even harder.

" No baby. It's not ok. No one will ever talk to you like that again. I won't allow it. I will never grab you like that. You don't deserve it." I hugged him once more as Damien walked in the kitchen, looking confused. I took DJ's hand, walking pass Damien and to the living room, rocking DJ to sleep.

"What happened today?" Damien asked as I layed DJ on the couch. I didn't answer. I walked to the bathroom, him following behind.

" I grabbed him and yelled at him today. I cursed at him. I feel so bad Damien. I'm so sorry. I will never do that again. I sounded just like my mom. DJ was scared shitless." I said, turning on the shower. I was afraid of his reaction, so I didn't even look in his direction.

" Shit Porsha he'll be ok. DJ is bad. He's a damn boy. Yall gone be alright. DJ love you baby." He laughed slapping my naked butt. "And I love you too".

Nelly: Lets go have drinks tonight
Me: Sure I'm down I'll be ready at 8
Nelly: Cool. . . .and leave that hulk arm at home. That child almost fell out
Me: Fuck u. . . .pick me up
Nelly: ok

I needed a drink or 12. Especially after that afternoon. But how could I be so fake. I was only a few days away of one if the worst days of Nelly's life. My fake ass. . . .Fake ass Porsha. . . . .

The bar was packed from door to door. Me and Nelly were dressed to kill. Men were buying us drinks all night. So many drinks that I had about 5 too many.

"That's my song bitch!" I yelled to Nelly as Neyo "One in a Million" played in the background. I was throwed but not enough to where I didn't know what going on around me.

"I can tell she" she said in a annoying voice. " I think you done had enough to drink Porsha.

" I've been so stressed lately Nelly I need to have a little fun"

" It's time for us to go girl" she laughed wrapping my arm around hers as I danced out the door. By this time, the last few drinks were taking over, and as the old saying goes. . . . . A Drunk Man Don't Tell No Tales. . . . .