Sinbound

Chapter 25

Bexley

"Veyron it's not even what you're thinking in the slightest. I am not using her, I do not plan on hurting her or leaving her unless she makes me. I do genuinely care about her. I know I keep my reputation tight for a reason but if there is anyone who I think will break that it is her and I do not care because honestly I decided before her mom died that I'd burn the world for her. I have watched from afar for years as she has lived her life. She is an amazing person. She is brilliant, talented, absolutely beautiful just the way she is, and above all I admire the way she loves with such compassion." He said pausing before he kept going only now I could hear the smile in his voice. "She's fiercely loyal, fiercely independent, she values honesty and integrity, she is brave with a resilient spirit but she's also headstrong with a sarcastic humor. All together though she couldn't be better. If it were up to me I'd have buried Derek for his betrayal, its in his best interest to hope he never and I mean ever runs into me. Don't even get me started on Declan, he can hope and pray but I have been plotting on him since he took Bexley. He will never touch her again as long as I can do something about it. I don't know how she feels but regardless of how she feels, I will respect it and protect her. I am not going anywhere, sure I came because I was told too but it didn't mean I didn't want too. I have never felt like I do about anyone."
Ember and I looked at each other quickly and she smiled big before nudging me with her shoulder. We walked back up the stairs to let them finish talking and sat at the counter eating another cupcake.
"How do you feel?" Ember asked quietly. I shrugged lightly.
"I don't know. I mean there is definitely something but how do I trust him after Derek then Declan. How do I give myself to someone after what has been done to me? How do I tell him what has happened without his running?" I asked her.
"Look I understand I didn't go through the stuff with Declan like you did but if there's one thing Veyron has taught me it's that not everyone is out to hurt you. There are people you can trust and that may take time to find and there is likely to be a few in-between but when you find one to put your trust into and they earn it and prove you right then it is worth everything. You just have to want to try and want it to work. As for telling him the things that have happened to you, he will need to know if you are willing to try. He will need to understand why you're guarded and if he runs then he wasn't the one." She said before she hugged me.

"I'm going to go to my room, can you send Kaius in when he's done?" I asked, I was now tired and conflicted. She nodded and I walked to the bedroom and got pajamas before going to take a shower. When I got out I put on my burgundy pajamas, the shirt was a slight crop top tank top that said sleep in white letters with eyelashes and the bottoms were burgundy and white striped shorts. When I finished I brushed my hair and walked out, Kaius was sitting on my bed in grey flannel pants and a black tshirt that hugged his abs and arms so I was guessing Veyron and Ember let him use their shower. I felt my face get hot when I felt his eyes travel down my legs, I went to go back to the bathroom to get my robe when Kai grabbed my hand.
"Please don't shut me out. Even if you feel like this is nothing or whatever you're feelings are. Do not shut me out, please Bexley." Kai begged, I had no control over what I did next I just reacted and it seemed like instinct. I pulled him to me quickly and pressed my lips to his and we melted into a passionate kiss. I wrapped my hands back in his hair instinctively as his moved straight to my thighs picking me up and wrapping my legs around him. He pulled back for a second and looked at me.
"We should talk about this, ya know," He said breathing heavy.
"In a minute. I just need to be wrapped up in this for a minute please?" I asked and he smiled. I pulled him back to me as he set me on the bed and hovered above me but we didn't break the kiss, it just grew more intense as his hands ran up my thighs and then my hips as he pulled me slightly closer. I felt his hands on my side and his fingertips brushed my skin below my top and then they ran under the top slightly and I froze when his fingers ran over a few scars, he tensed when he realized what he had felt. I pulled away from the kiss and sighed quietly.

"Guess it's time to talk." I whispered and he stood but didn't go anywhere before he picked me up bridal style and carried me to the couch, he pulled me to his lap as he sat down. He grabbed my chin with two fingers and brought my face to his so we were looking at each other.
"I just want to say no matter how you feel I will respect it. I just need you to know I'm here for you and I am not going anywhere, I will do everything I can to protect you and I don't know what this is or how you feel but for me it is something and I do feel a way about you." He said quietly before letting my chin go.
"I... I have trust issues and more past trama than most, you should probably reconsider and you will be able to after I tell you everything." I said, starting to tear up already. "Derek and Declan have done more damage than anybody ever has to me besides my own father. Derek's betrayal has made it hard to trust anybody but I am trying. If I give you my heart and tell you everything, I need you to promise not to break it intentionally. I don't know how much more I can handle. I don't know what is happening but I don't think it is in my head and I do have feelings for you. If you are in this with me, I need to be able to tell you what Declan did to me so that you can understand why I am defensive and secluded incase it affects you. You may run or get angry. If you get angry you have to communicate with me, I do not handle anger well. If you want to run then please for the love of God, just be honest with me." I said quieter than intended. He pulled me closer in his lap and kissed the top of my head.
"So you have been watching over me as I live my life huh?" I asked as I watched his mouth drop and the blush appear lightly upon his cheeks out of the corner of my eyes.
"You were listening?" he asked as he looked down at me.
"I couldn't help myself. I had to know, I'm sorry." I said with a small sigh.
"That's okay, I would've had a hard time telling you my feelings anyhow." he said. "Since I guess you already heard it then you know how I feel about you and have felt about you. Bexley I am not going anywhere and whenever you're ready you can tell me your story, I have seen a lot and done more so I'm sure I won't be running anywhere."
I gave a small smile, Kai grabbed my face and gave me a small kiss and then I laid my head on his chest before I drifted off slowly.