Taylor POV
Award shows were always interesting, i would never say that i loved them or that i hated them but if someone were to ask me i would say they were interesting. At least that was my response to Travis asking me about them as we sat across from each other getting ready.
"Why interesting? that's an odd word to use" He replied
"Well not really, Something always happens at them and therefore they are interesting." I explain, dropping my head as i finish my sentence
"That's not the reason"
"What?" I ask
"Be honest this time" He replies
"Well i don't know" I start
"I enjoy going to them and seeing people that i haven't in a while, like i do have somewhat of a good time being in attendance but at the same time i have cameras on me the whole night. I am like a zoo animal that is put on display while it does a cool trick or something and i get so overwhelmed but i can not do anything about it." I explain before getting up to go and put my dress on, leaving Travis sitting alone
I zip my dress up and quickly take a look at myself and exhale deeply, I knew i would be okay tonight but it somehow didn't ease the knot in my stomach.
"You know i am here for you all night right? If you truly want to leave after the awards we can" Travis walks into the room and i just simply nod in return to words
"You absolutely stunning my love" His hands finds my hips and i lean into his touch, needing comfort even just for a little moment
"Thank you" I whisper, letting my head fall onto Travis' chest
We stand there for a few more moments, standing in silence and accepting the comfort that both of us gave each other. The silence saying enough without words needing to be spoke.
But soon enough, maybe even too soon its time to leave and the silence is over, the peace and safeness that i was just surrounded by has gone out the window and there is no trace of it anywhere. I walk into the venue and immediately i feel eyes on me, voices mentioning my name everywhere and so many people.
No matter how many of these types of shows i go to i still am the same. On the outside i was fine, i smiled and said thank you to each compliment. i was okay.
On the inside i wanted to cry. i wanted to scream and i wanted to run, I know that there has to be cameras around and that is okay but what i don't think is needed is the two cameras that pointing at me and are just a few feet away, focusing on my every expression and following my every move.
I stand up from my chair and begin to clap for who ever just won the award that i wasn't paying attention too. As soon as the clapping comes to an end i drop my hands to grab one of Travis'
"Are you okay?" He lowers his head to whisper into my ear and instead of words i nod my head
"I love you" He kisses my cheek after he talks and again i just nod, that is when he figures out that i am only nodding because i cant talk incase i start crying
I cant cry in front of the cameras and it is basically impossible to move away from the cameras that are being shoved in my face right now.
"Okay sweet girl, lets go home" He rubs circles on my hand with his thumb as he talks and just as i am about to nod my head in agreeance for the third time i hear my name being called
"The winner is Taylor Swift" The lady who i haven't been paying attention to reads into the microphone
I take a deep breath before letting go of Travis' hand and walking up to the stage trying to find any sign to say what award i had just won, but i cant so i guess i just have to go up and figure out what to say on the spot.
I make my way up on to the stage slowly as i solely focus on breathing slowly that i don't realize Travis is now standing directly below where i will speak into the microphone, trying to provide any comfort he can
"Wow. okay. Firstly thank you for this award i truly didn't think i would be receiving one tonight hence why i am standing up here racking my brain what to say right now. Making music has been such a huge part of my life for so long and i can not be more grateful that so many of you love it just as much as i do, writing and singing have been an escape and outlet for me and while i am helping myself i am glad that throughout the process i have also helped you guys. I also would like to thank the man standing in front of me, Travis you are the kindest and most loving person i have had the pleasure of meeting, You have shown me that i am capable pf loving something so deeply and getting love in return. Thank you for loving me so out loud"
I quickly turn around, hugging each person on the stage before i rush back down the stairs and into Travis' arms
"I love you princess" he kissed my head
"I love you so much, please take me home"
We pull apart and quickly grab each others hands before making our way out of the venue.
This gets a lot sometimes, the noise, the cameras and the people all get a little too much but never too much to stop doing it. The last few years i have been in the spotlight every day but i have also got to meet the best people, fall in love and write songs that i am so incredibly proud of.
