I wish you liked me as much as i loved you
Those words played over and over again in my head like it was a broken record that would never break enough for the words to stop. Although i didn't want them to stop, I loved knowing that Travis shares the same feelings that i have towards him but i am also hyper aware that nothing can happen between the two of us ever.
The next day i walk into rehearsals and try my best to act like my usual self. I don't know which i prefer, having as strong feelings as i do for Travis but not knowing that he shared those same feelings or knowing that we both feel the same but not being able to act on a single one of them.
As we danced through rehearsals i tried my best to avoid eye contact with Travis, that was until the backing track had changed and we had now reached the part in the setlist where Travis slowly dances his way to me and we walk the stage hand in hand.
As soon as my small hand was taken by his larger one my breath involuntary hitched, I life my head so my gaze falls onto Travis who is already looking at me. My cheeks become hotter the longer i look at him and i just know that my face is growing redder by the second, Travis' mouth turns into a smile as he gently squeezes my hand.
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I was packing up my things that happened to be a whole big mess sitting in the corner of the possibly to big of a room while everybody else was walking out of the glass doors.
"Taylor" Travis' voice startled me as i put my hoodie in my bag
"Oh i'm sorry i didn't mean to scare you" He laughed
"No no you're okay" I giggled as i zipped up my bag
"About last night" He started and instantly my head dropped to the ground
"You heard what i said" He whispered, not asking me a question but more just telling himself
"I did" I whisper back
"I am so sorry i shouldn't have talked or said what i said"
"Travis it's okay"
"No Taylor it was stupid and i made you uncomfortable, now you have to be around me until the tour ends i mean unless you want to fire me which of course you could if you wanted to, although i do hope you don't do that"
"Travis stop talking" I laugh
I quickly take a step closer to Travis and softly place my hands on either on of his cheeks
"You didn't say anything wrong okay and i promise that i will not be firing you"
"I mean i kind of told you that i kind of loved you" His voice was so quiet
"And i kind of liked hearing that" I match the volume of his voice
Instead of replying with words Travis' jaw just drops and his eyes lock on mine
"You were being weird today" He confesses
"I was trying not to act any different but i guess that didn't really work" I chuckle as my words slip out of my mouth
"Why?"
"Because i was hoping that would stop me from telling you just how much i liked you too, i thought that you wouldn't want to hear that"
"I wish you told me sooner"
"I couldn't"
"Why?"
"Nothing can happen between us"
"Why?"
"Travis stop saying why" I laugh out, dropping my hands from his face
"Why?"
