If You Speak Your Heart (Heart Series #1)

Heart 24

CW: mention of drugs

Chapter 24
CALVIN

For the first time after what happened to us, I can feel his gentleness again. I was pushed back to the Sirius I know— the one with soft and expressive eyes... and the calmest and forgiving guy I know.

Para akong nakalitang nang muli ko siyang matitigan sa malapit. Kahit anong gawin ko, kahit dismayado ako at may nagugulumihang galit ako sa kanya, gustong-gusto ko pa ring nasisilayan siya. Tumatalon pa rin ang puso ko kapag malapit siya sa akin.

"Sasama ka ba sa akin ngayon? Dahil pinili mo ako?"

Hindi ako sumagot. I just want to grab this chance to stare at him all night— pagsasawain ang sarili ko.

I can't help but noticed his physical appearance. Ganoon pa rin siya, malinis at... sobrang gwapo pa rin. Only that, it's his eyes whenever it gets dark that made him look merciless.

"I know that you really didn't change your mind. I know you didn't really choose me. You lure me here," he said, completely stunned me.

My lips trembled. Unti-unti ko ring naramdaman ang panlalamig ko.

"That asshole want to expell me so bad, huh? He knows I am crying so much to see you. He knows I am craving to talk to you, to touch you, and to make up to you. This is to lure me. Dahil alam niyang hindi ko 'to matatanggihan. Alam niyang hindi kita tatanggihan."

"A-Alam mo naman pala, bakit ka pumayag?"

He smiled humorlessly. "Kaya kitang tanggihan at pabayaang maghintay rito, Lara?"

My heart pounded so hard I think it broke my ribcage.

"He wanted to paint me as the bad guy so you would hate me. Umamin na ako. Sinabi ko na ang nararamdaman ko sa'yo. Wala ng makakapigil sa akin kaya sa tingin niya ba aatrasan ko siya?"

"A-Anong ibig mong sabihin?"

"Babanggain ko lahat. Hahamakin ko ang lahat para sa'yo. Wala na akong pakialam."

Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at  kinaladkad papalabas sa lumang building.

"Run, Lara. Marami sila ngayon dito. Nanonood. Tumakbo ka na."

My eyes widened. I can feel the fear creeping on my body. Unti-unting nanlamig muli ang tiyan ko at para akong hihimatayin sa sinabi niya.

"W-What do you mean?"

Nangantal ako. I can feel the electrifying fear creeping on my body.

"S-Sinong sila ang tinutukoy mo? Ang mga tao mo ba? Mga ka-gang mo? You know I will lure you here so you came here prepared with your gangmates and bullies? Para ano? Saktan ako?"

"Tumakbo ka na."

"I will hate you so much—"

"Then hate me! Loathe me! Just ran away and be safe, Charlara!"

Muli niya akong itinulak papalayo subalit pareho kaming natigilan nang may marinig na sunod-sunod na kalabog.

Namilog ang mga mata ko nang makitang nagsipaglabasan ang maraming estudyante mula sa iba't ibang sulok ng building, may dala-dalang batuta at kahoy.

Sirius cursed and for the first time, nakitaan ko ng takot ang mga mata niya. Not for the situation— but for me. Halos mapasigaw ako nang sumugod sa kanya ang mga lalaki para dambahin siya.

"What the fuck? Sirius!"

"Run away, Parenias!"

Sirius cursed again and battled the students. Lahat ng sinusubukang lapitan ako ay nilalaban niya. I was shaking. My heart was drumming in fear as I watched him fighting everyone alone.