Rollercoaster love

Decisions

We are all on the plane home. Leah is sat next to me, holding my hand. As much as I travel the world, I hate flying. The good thing is I can hide the throwing up with travel sickness. Which I've done for the whole flight.
I'm back in my seat.
Leah: "you sure you're okay? You don't normally throw up this much."
Molly: "yeah, just been a long week."
Leah: "you'll feel better when we are home."
I smile at her.
Leah: "what?"
Molly: "nothing. I've just missed you."
Leah: "I've missed you too."
She kisses my temple and I put my head on her shoulder.
Molly: "TJ?"
TJ: "yo."
Molly: "when's Lauren coming back?"
TJ: "not for another week. Her parents are there so she's spending time with them and Scar."
Molly: "you didn't want to stay? You could have."
TJ: "I'm where I'm needed. Lauren gets it. Had the whole week with them both so it's fine."
Molly: "okay. If you change your mind it's okay."
He nods and smiles at me.

Once we've landed Wayne and Aaron take Leah home, TJ and Jason take me home.
Molly: "boys."
Jason: "yeah, what's up? You gonna be sick?"
Molly: "no I just need to know something."
TJ: "go on."
Molly: "is he gone gone?"
TJ: "we didn't kill him if that's what you mean."
Molly: "no I know you didn't, you wouldn't. I mean, is there chance he'll come back?"
TJ: "no. He knows what will happen if he does."
Molly: "okay."
TJ: "you need anything?"
Molly: "a test."
Jason: "okay, there's a boots further up, I'll run out and grab you one okay?"
Molly: "thanks."
Jason: "stop thanking us."
Molly: "I'll never stop."
I see them both smile.
As promised Jason runs into boots, grabs a pregnancy test and gets back in the car.
Jason: "here."
Molly: "thank youuuuu."
Jason: "I got you boss."

We drive home. My parents aren't in, Milo is a school. I let myself and the boys in and I go straight to the bathroom. TJ follows me.
TJ: "you taking it now?"
Molly: "yeah so get out."
He salutes me and I hear him go downstairs. I take the test and head back downstairs with it.
TJ: "well?"
Molly: "it takes a few minutes dummy."
I smile at him so he knows I'm joking.
My leg is bouncing.
My palms are sweating.
My heart is beating out of my chest.
2 minutes have gone by.
I hesitate. I don't want his baby inside me. But I want a baby. Tonnes of emotions run through my body.
TJ: "you want me to look first?"
Molly: "no, no I need to."
He nods. I pick it up and turn it over.

Pregnant.

I tear up. TJ and Jason look at eachother.
They both sit next to me.
TJ: "hey it's going to be okay."
Jason: "yeah, of course it is."
Molly: "wh-what about Leah? My parents? I I don't know what to do"
I put my hands over my face to hide the incoming tears.
TJ goes to speak when the door opens.
Jason grabs the test and put its in his pocket.
Will: "hi sweetheart, lads. I thought you were back tomorrow?"
TJ: "we decided to come home early."
Will: "you guys hungry? It's takeaway night."
I'm hiding my tears but the second my dad looks at me I burst out crying.
Will: "honey? What's wrong?"
I shake my head and hide my face.
Will: "princess, what ever it is, I can help."
Molly: "no one can."
The lads look at my dad.
Dad sits next to me and pulls me in for a hug.
Will: "it's going to be okay."
Molly: "he raped me dad."
Will: "he-he what?"
Molly: "and now I'm pregnant with his baby and I can't lose Leah again and I don't know what to do."
Will: "hey hey, slow down. It's going to be okay, how about you start from the beginning?"

I tell my dad everything. Tom, the baby, Leah. Everything.
Will: "honey let me tell you something. Leah loves you with all of her heart. She was there for you when you told the boys. Everything, with Leah, is going to be okay. She will be there with you through everything. Whatever you decide to do. She'll be there."
I nod into his chest.
Will: "as for Tom, I'm sure the lads sorted something out where you'll never have to see him again. He won't get through life being the way he is, but you will. You have us, the boys, Leah. Everyone loves you sweetheart. Don't forget that."
Molly: "okay."
Will: "good, now go get some rest. Mum and Milo will be home soon."
Molly: "can you tell mum? I don't think I can."
Will: "of course."
TJ: "call us if you need anything Mol, yeah?"
Molly: "yeah."
I stand up and hug J and TJ before heading upstairs.

I stand at the top of the stairs and hear my dad say something to the lads.
Will: "thank you."
TJ: "just doing our jobs sir."
Will: "no this was more than that. Thank you for looking after her."
TJ: "Leah did most of that."
Will: "she did?"
TJ: "yeah"
Will: "okay I'll thank her too."
J: "call us if she needs anything, we are only down the road."
Will: "Will do."

The front door shuts and I go to my room. I lay down for a while until I hear tiny footsteps heading for my door. Milo is home.
My door creeps open and someone gets in bed with me.
Milo: "hi mol."
Molly: "hey little man."
Milo: "you feeling better?"
Molly: "a little bit buddy. Want to watch tv with me?"
Milo: "yeah!"
Molly: "okay."
We both sit up. Milos head on my legs as I put a random tv show on.
Milo: "love you."
Molly: "love you too."

After a while Milo gets bored, as he does and runs out of the room. Mum comes in.
Janet: "oh sweetheart."
Molly: "dad told you then."
Janet: "he did."
I nod and mum sits next to me.
Janet: "what are you going to do? What do you want to do?"
Molly: "I need to tell Leah."
Janet: "you don't have to darling. Not until you've decided."
Molly: "no, I need to tell her anyway."
Janet: "okay. Well she's downstairs already."
Molly: "she is?"
Janet: "she's worried about you, so thought she'd check in."
I smile.
Janet: "I haven't seen that smile in a while."
Molly: "what smile?"
Janet: "the in love smile."
Molly: "I do love her mum, I never stopped."
Janet: "I know darling, I know. Want me to send her up?"
Molly: "yeah."
Janet: "okay honey."
Mum kisses my head and goes down stairs. Soon after Leah appears.
Leah: "hey."
Molly: "hi."
Leah: "you feeling any better?"
Molly: "erm not really."
Leah: "Will this help?"
She holds up a chocolate shake.
Molly: "maybe."
I smile.
She sits on the bed next to me.
Leah: "I'm sorry for just turning up, I wanted to see if you were okay."
Molly: "always just turn up."
Leah: "okay."
Molly: "listen, there's something I need to tell you."
Leah: "yeah, me too."
Molly: "you go first."
Leah: "I still love you Mol. I always have and I always will. And I know you've been through a lot but if you want me, then I'll stay by your side forever. No matter what."
Molly: "I love you too but you might not want to stay after what I tell you."
Leah: "okay?"
Molly: "I'm pregnant."
Leah: "pregnant?"
Molly: "ye-yeah."
I play with my hands and look down.
Leah: "okay. Whatever you want to do, I'll be by your side."
Molly: "really?"
I look up at her.
Molly: "even if I want to keep it?"
Leah: "well, yeah. I love you, I'm there for you whatever you want to do. We are in this together."
I launch forward and hug her.
Leah: "hey it's alright, I love you. I'm not losing you again."
Molly: "I haven't made a decision yet."
Leah: "there's no rush. Is this why you were throwing up?"
Molly: "yeah."
Leah: "you could have just told me you know?"
Molly: "I didn't know for certain. I took the test an hour ago."
Leah: "oh. Right."
Molly: "it's late."
Leah: "yeah, can I come back tomorrow?"
Molly: "you can stay tonight if you want to."
Leah: "only if you're sure."
Molly: "never been so sure of anything in my life."
Leah smiles at me. I've missed that smile.