just me

just too much

I'm stronger than I ever thought I'd be   
That's the way you re built me
I still have my moments
I still have my days
But it's probably past time
That we went our different ways
I don't look at you the same
Don't know if I ever will
But you left behind some big shoes to fill.

I can't go back
I'll risk too much
I'm not even sure I can even trust
Your words when you say
Everything will turn out okay
Your eyes
When they look into mine
I can't be broken
Not one more time.

I used to believe
We could deal with anything
But it all became too much
When you couldn't be honest enough
To tell me what was really going on
When you walked away
Like I didn't matter at all.

You say you weren't mad
But it was for the best
Like I'd be waiting
At the end of the test
Not this time
I can handle friendship
But I don't have anything left
For anything more
At least not now
Maybe not ever
Things would have to change
To ever go back that way.

You may call it demands
I call them standards
If you can't meet them
Then nothing else matters.