just me

different

I can't read your words
They hurt too much
I thought you were starting to love me
That's what you had me thinking

I'm ready to delete everything
But that's too much for me
I'm already under so much stress
But it just might be for the best

I don't know if I should stay
Count my losses and just walk away
It just seems too hard
Not knowing what's going on
You're being so different
Not responding to my messages
It's been almost 2 weeks
All I've gotten is one thing
Saying it's family problems
That you're trying to fix
But I'm stuck worrying there's more to it

Maybe you met someone else and you just can't say it
It's okay
I can really take it
I can move on
I can deal with more than you think
I'm stronger than what I seem
Believe me you can't break me.

Maybe it was all too much
You decided it wasn't what you want
That's okay too
It was something different for both of us
Maybe it wasn't meant to last
Maybe it was meant to get me out of my past
And into the future
Wherever that might lead.

I'll be okay
I'll stop checking my messages in a few days
I'll go back to normal
Heal my slightly wounded soul
Go back to what I know
And lock up my heart until I know it's safe again
Maybe you'll find someone too
That won't be so different from what you know
Won't make you so bold
It's okay to try something new
Just glad it didn't go too far
Might have been too much for my heart.