Pinky Promise

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2019

Taylors POV

I watched Travis reaction closely as i chewed on my lip, thinking about what had happened all those years ago. he had promised me, not knowing I still had been dating Matty... he had said all those things about gentleness and love and all the while he had had no idea she in fact wasn't single.

and yet I had said so to him, we had been each others first time and now, all those years later we met again at exactly this time. This just couldn't be a coincidence, it couldnt. It almost felt like there was an invisible strigh tying us to each other, that was responsible for all of this.

"i remember." Travis repeated lowly, the gaze in his eyes slightly different when he looked back up at me and under all those layers he had put on over the last years, I could still see that hurt 18 year old boy that found out his best friend had lied to him.

"if... If i could take back how it happened back then I would Travis.. but I would never take that promise away. we're both 30 now... well almost and we both want a family...and you know we're both single and available..." I trailed of, slowly trailing my hand over his biceps as his gaze shifted and the hurt turned into something I had last least about 11 years and 10 months ago.

lust.

„What are you asking of me Taylor?" he murmured lowly  and god the both of us knew exactly what i was asking but he wanted to hear it from me and oh how damn bad I just wanted to do that.

„Are you asking me to marry you?" Travis asked again when I didn't answer, still chewing on my lip, catching me off guard. I blinked a few times before shaking my head, seeing Travis brows rise.

„No, no that's not what I'm asking Travis, I-I still think that it's possible you or I might find someone we wanna marry or maybe... you know maybe we're it for each other, but what I know is that I want a baby and I can't imagine anyone, who would be a better father than you would. I know how amazing you are with kids, you have always been , ever since we were teenagers. 

I can't make us fall in love and I only ever wanna marry the person I love most in this world, but I know I love you and I know we can work this out." I ended up, shifting closer even more and trying my best to make my eyes shine more than they already were.

„When Jake cheated on me.. and git that girl pregnant it made me realize just how important it was for me to start a family and I don't think I'm healed enough to start dating again, but I know I want a child and my clock is ticking." He just ajd to understand, he had to.

I knew I had lied to him in the past, told him i was free when I wasn't, I had gotten his hoped up an I hated myself for that but this was so different. We had both grown up, we had stable jobs and we wanted a family. It was almost too perfect to be true. 

"Taylor that's... that's a lot to ask.. we just met again today and..." 

Tears started to well up in my eyes when his eyes met mine again and i just nodded before he could say what he was bout to say. 

"I know I know I'm not the typpa woman you- you- you wanna have kids wih, or well anyone for that matter. I'm a nice girl, but, I'm great, but, I'm pretty but, all those buts I've heard them before Bear, I know them already and you are the last person I wanna hear them from. If you don't wanna have a baby with me I get that, I understand but just say it quickly, rip the bandais o-" 

And suddenly his lips were pressed up against mine, claiming them, kissing them in a deep, all consuming way that made my stomach explode with butterflies and my whole body tingle wth that sensation I hadn't been able to find ever since we had parted ways. 

Travis didn't just kiss me. he sunk his hand into my hair, let t slip over my neck as he carefully ran his tongue over my lip and my body gave in before my mind could even start to contemplate that decision. 

as if it was pure instinct I let myself sink back into the couch cushions , Travis ontop of me, atleast up from his hips while his arms snaked their way around my back, pulling me even closre to him and we only pulled apart once I felt like passing out due to the lack of oxygen, or maybe it was because the butterflies in my stomach were numbing my senses with the applause of their wings, that seemed to shatter louder than a whole stadium of people. 

I hadnt been kissed like this n years, not even during the sex I had had and god I didnt think I had been this wet either. 

Travis green eyes met mine as we pulled apart, our forheards pressed against each other whle the sparl in his eyes could have burned down the entre forest that seemed to make up the color of hs iris. 

My hand had moved towards his beard and I only now noticed i had been toying with uit the entire time. 

"don't ever think again that any of that shit your micropenised no existent dick of an ex boyfriend told you. you are the woman anyone would be a lucky bastard to call hs babymomma." 

god his babymomma sounded way too hoz from his lips. 

"you are amazing Daisy, any men would be lucky to have a baby with you, Give mejust 2 weeks to consider this, think it through and then we can go through the details and look at how we wanna tackle this. and even if we end up not gong for it. Im staying with you Daisy, no matter what's gonna happen. Jut promise me.. no more lies?"

I nodded immediately, secretly longing for his lips again and unable to focus on any of his words. too bad he would turn out to be a hypocrate.