things i keep to myself

19.

im starting to forget your eye color
but i can't forget the way your hands felt
im starting to forget that summer
but i can't forget how i used to melt

i lay in bed, and i reminisce
playing back the way you smiled at me
i play back the way we used to kiss

you were there when i was stung by a bee

some days, i wanna text
i just wanna see how you are
but i know i won't be your next
but you'll always be my favorite star

speaking of stars, i remember that night
we laid in the grass, and you held me
i told you im only comfortable where there's light
but i think we just weren't meant to be

our story has ended, but i wanna turn the page
it seems like the end was rushed, so can we try again
you unlocked my heart that was locked in a cage
locked it back up and wrote your name in pen

i wish life could be like it was before you came
i was fine before you smiled at me and said hi
now i can't hear your name, or else i'll go insane
i don't wanna be dramatic, but i'll love you til i die