things i keep to myself

14.

the drawing i made
began to fade
i've thought about tracing them over
maybe i just need some closure

i used to do it when i got bored
and when my mental health floored
it's getting bad again
it's been like this since before i was ten

i need more time to heal
but all the time i have school steals
i haven't eaten in days
"you're gonna die" everyone says

maybe that's the goal
cause after this i don't know where to go
nothing is planned
everything is damned

i wanna sleep forever
nobody would notice whatsoever
im so fucking tired
i feel like food that's been expired