Five years have passed, and a lot has changed in that time. Panic! At The Disco, they got signed to a record label. A fever you can't sweat out was released. Brent was kicked out of the band, and a new guy called Jon joined. Their second album, Pretty. Odd was a huge success, too. That was when problems arose within the band. Ryan wanted to do more music along the lines of the pretty odd era. Jon was in agreement with him.
Brendon and Spencer felt like they didn't want to. They wanted to explore different sounds. All four of the guys realised that it wasn't working anymore. Panic! At The Disco was still under contract with Fueled By Ramen for five more albums. So Ryan and Jon left, and Brendon and Spencer carried on with the band.
"Hey, Spencer." I said, hugging him.
"Hi, Lulu." He replied. We were chilling backstage. Brendon walked into the dressing room. The air changed to tense and awkward. I sighed and rolled my eyes.
"Hello, Brendon." I said and smiled at him.
"Lulu." He replied quietly, looking anywhere but at me.
"How's Linda?" I asked Spencer.
"She's good, Lu. She misses you." Spencer said, looking sad.
"I miss her too. She's the sister I never had, the same as you are my brother." I sniffed, and a solitary tear escaped. Brendon scoffed. I chose to ignore him.
The band was on tour with their new album, Vices and Virtues. They had a couple of new guitarists now. Dallon and Ian. I had met them. They were cool guys. As Spencer and I chatted, Sarah, Brendons girlfriend, walked into the room. As soon as she saw me, she walked over to Brendon and put an arm around him. As if she was claiming a prize at the carnival. I smiled and greeted her. Sarah wasn't sure what to do, so she nodded in my direction.
Spencer indicated for me to go for a walk with him. We went around the perimeter of the venue.
"How are you, Lulu? Really?" That's the thing with Spencer. He knows me too well. I sighed.
"I am a lot better, Spence. Honestly. What else am I meant to do, but get over it. We tried, and it didn't work."
Spencer nodded and put his arm around my shoulder.
"I think he still loves you, Lulu." Spencer stopped and turned to look at me.
"I still love him too. But I can't put myself through it all again. I wouldn't survive it. He looks happy with Sarah. Let's just leave it like that. Spencer, I think a part of me will always love Brendon. He was my first proper love. You never forget your first love, so they say." I half smiled at him, and we went back into the venue. We were linking arms as we headed into the dressing room. Linda was here. She was talking to Sarah.
"Linda!" I said. I rushed over to her and hugged her tight.
"Lulu! I have missed you."
"Ditto." I had tears in my eyes.
Brendon walked back into the room.
"Aw fuck!" I heard him say. Linda and I looked at him.
"Are you OK, Brendon?"
"Er...um....yea, Lulu. I am good." I nodded my head.
"Coffee?" I asked Linda.
"Let's go." Linda replied.
"Sarah?" She raised an eyebrow in surprise at me.
"What?" She said.
"Are you coming for coffee?"
"S-sure." All three of us went to a local coffee shop. Brendon looked a little panicked.
An hour we all returned, chatting and giggling. Spencer and the other guys were off doing sound check. So we just hung in the dressing room.
20 minutes later, the guys returned. I checked the time.
"Shoot. I gotta go. Work. Later, guys." I got up and left.
I was dead on my feet. Work had been exceptionally busy. We had a huge car accident on the freeway. Being an ER nurse was a dream I had, and I did it. Taking care of people.
After changing from my scrubs, I drove home. I pulled into the apartment complex parking lot. I needed my bed. It was 4am.
I went straight to bed once I got in.
Banging on the front door woke me up. I checked the time. 8am? Wtf? I growled and stumbled to the door.
I was not expecting Brendon to be standing there. I was going to try and sort myself out, but this guy has seen me naked many times.
"Brendon?" I questioned.
"Hi, can I come in?" I stood back to let him in.
I went to make a pot of coffee. As it brewed, I got 2 mugs down. I was puzzled why Brendon was here. Especially this early. They had a show last night.
I put the 2 mugs onto the coffee table and sat on the couch, next to Brendon.
"So," Brendon began, "I came because I needed to say something." I raised an eyebrow.
"Lulu, I am.....I am still in love with you." Brendon had hold of my hand and was looking into my eyes as he said it all. I sighed and stood up.
"Brendon........" I trailed off, and I didn't know what to do or say next. I was pissed. I have finally gotten over Brendon fuckin Urie and then he comes to my apartment, to declare his love for me. Why? He has Sarah,she is lovely.
I growled again and slammed my bedroom door. I slid down it and started crying.
