Always

3.Nightmares.

Katniss POV\

I've been laying on this floor for hours. Just curled up in the same position. A bright light shines through the window. I peak my head up and look towards the window. I crawl over and open up the window. The cold air brushes my face and I instantly get chills. I look up into the sky and see the moon shinning brighter than ever. I smile. I have always loved the moon. 

The way it shines throughout the night, with it being so still and quiet, but so loud and powerful at the same time. When I'm sitting there admiring the moons beauty, a very particular man comes to mind. Peeta. I sigh and start to feel my eyes tear up. 

"Peeta, I know you're not listening, but I hope that you can feel my calling. I miss you more than words can explain. I need you to come home. I need to see your face and hold your strong hands. I want to hear you say your favorite word to me. Always. I don't have the guts to say it to your face, but I am so in love with you. Please come back to me."

I fall back on the floor, and I can feel my heart breaking. The pain isn't bearable. I try to get up to call haymitch, but it's no use. I try to move but my body is stuck. 

Is this how I am going to die? Die from a broken heart, broken soul?

I hear my front door open and hear someone yell my name. 

"Katniss!!!"

I try to speak but no words come out. I try to make a sound for this person to hear me but its no use, my body feels paralyzed. 

I hear footsteps come ascending the stairs. I hear them run in here. 

"Oh my god, Katniss!"

The person comes over to me and starts freaking out. 

"Katniss! no! fuck! I promised him, I fucking promised Peeta!"

After I heard his name, my body shot up and I looked at the person. Haymitch. He was freaking out.

He grabs me and hugs me. 

"God Katniss, you scared me."

I nodded and held haymitch. 

"I'm sorry, I was talking to the moon, and I felt my heart breaking, piece by piece. My body became stuck in time. I couldn't do anything. As soon as you said Peeta my body like woke up."

Hyamitch sigh and picked me up bridal style and carried me downstairs. He put me on the couch and walked into the kitchen. He came back with a cup of water and Tylenol. 

I took the medicine and drank the full cup of water. 

Haymitch sighs and looks at me. 

"What's going on kat? You scared me to death, you would've crushed pe-."

Haymitch stops and sighs. 

I furrow my eyebrows. 

"What do you mean haymitch? crush who?"

Haymitch sighs. 

"Peeta, Katniss."

My mind stops. Haymitch knows where Peeta is and how is he and won't tell me anything. 

"you son of a bitch. You know where he is and you know how he is and you won't tell me anything!"

"I'm sorry kat, I should've told you Buh, Peeta is hurting and doesn't want you to hurt worse, he just made me promise to keep you alive and safe."

I start crying. I want my Peeta. This isn't fair. Haymitch hugs and holds me till I fall asleep. I already know that I'm going to have nightmares, especially now I know that Peeta is hurting, and I can't be there to try and save him. 

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I wake up in a cold room. I look around me and I'm still laying in my bed. I hear footsteps and I grab my knife underneath my pillow. A figure walked into the room, and it was Peeta. 

Peeta looked at me shocked. 

"Woah, Katniss... it's just me."

I put the knife down and start breathing heavy. Peeta rushes over to me and hugs me. 

"sshhh its okay baby, I'm here. always."

I cry into Peeta's chest, and I hear another voice. 

"You're a mutt."

I look up at Peeta and see him looking at me smiling. 

"Peeta." I ask confused. 

He grabs my arm and pushes me off him. I fall over on my side of the bed and look up at Peeta. He grabs the knife and put it towards my neck. I look at him with tears in my eyes. 

"Awe, poor mutt, crying for her pathetic life. You shouldn't be here. You thought that I would actually love you?"

I feel Peeta put the blade closer into my skin. I look straight into his eyes. 

He stops and looks at me. "Actually, you know what would be better. I'm going to kill myself in front of you."

Peeta puts the blade to his throat. I jump up and launch at him but before I could grab him, he took the blade and went across his throat. He falls backwards and hits his head on the hardwood floor. I launch over to him and kneel next to him. 

"NOOOO PEETAAAA!" I scream with tears running down my face. 

He looks over to me and smiles. 

"Always."

He closes his eye lids, and he gives a final breathe and fall completely into darkness. 

I scream and cry. 

"PEETA NO! COME BACK TO ME PLEASE.! PLEASE COME BACK TO ME, YOU CAN'T LEAVE ME! DONT LEAVE ME! NOT AGAIN!"

I start banging on his chest and I feel my heart breaking all over again. 

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I woke up panting and I put my hand on my forehead and feel the beads of sweat dripping down my forehead. I put my hand on heart and felt it beating like crazy. I lay back into the pillow and stare at the ceiling. 

I need him to come home. This is torture on my mind and soul. My heart is in pieces, and I need Peeta to help me. I want to fix his too. He deserves it. My kindhearted, calming, loving, baker boy. Come home. 

Aweee thank you guys for reading chapter three. I hope you enjoy! Until next time. 

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