Between the pages

Chapter 30 The last letters for tomorrow

"To Giyu,

Hey, if you're reading this then it must mean I'm already gone... right? But I have a few things to say.

You're probably confused as to why I left a key in this envelope. Well.. I know you stay at an apartment. I know it's a lot but—That's the key to my home, please keep the house neat while I'm gone.

Sorry for all the times I've been so stubborn. I really just wanted to spend the limited time I was given with someone as special to me as you. I know I've hurt you one way or another and I want to apologize for it... Whatever it may be, I hope you can forgive me. I always struggled with expressing myself the way I wanted to, but I hope you know how much I truly cared.

I know I've said it countless times now but I need to say it again. Thank you.

Thank you for staying with me throughout this journey. I know it didn't end in the best way or the way we dreamed of, but It was nice while it lasted. It really was.

I know you're probably thinking about that book we talked about, the one I never got to finish. Please, don't forget to finish it. Give it the ending I could never give it, the best one you think it deserves. I always planned my own ending, but with everything happening, I never came close to seeing it through

And please, take care of Lucine for me. He's more than just a pet to me. Make sure he eats, rests, and stays safe. He's been through a lot, and I want him to know love and care, just like he's known from me.

That goes for you too.

Giyu, don't forget to take care of yourself, okay? Rest. Eat. Don't let the days slip away from you, and take some time to breathe in the fresh air. Enjoy each day, even if it's just in little moments.

Hah.. I must be so stupid for asking this of you, you barely know me...

But regardless.. please do take care of yourself. I know I never told you, but you mean the world to me.

Your company was the reason why I pushed through each painful day. It was comforting to know that someone actually cares.. even if we aren't even blood related.

You probably wonder when I wrote this letter... It was that night, the first snowfall of the year. You were sleeping so peacefully, and I could feel time slipping away. It was hard to accept, but I knew the time had come. And still, even as I write these words, I wish I could hold on just a little longer.

I hope, wherever you are, you're seeing the moon tonight. Is it as beautiful as it always was? I hope you're taking it in, because it's breathtaking. I used to think it was just a symbol of the passing of time, but now I see it differently. It's a reminder of everything we were and everything we meant to each other."

Why couldn't you have just told me...

Why didn't you say anything? I know you had your reasons—maybe you thought you were protecting me, or maybe you just didn't want to burden me. But it hurt, more than I can say, because I could feel the distance, the walls between us. I could see how you were struggling, but I didn't know why. I kept telling myself it would pass, but it didn't.

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Three Years Later...

Hey Y/N... It's been about three years now. Do you think you've managed to catch up on all the sleep you missed out on?

I'm sitting in the cemetery right now, beside your resting place. It's strange, but I come here often, even after all this time. I just can't seem to let go.